Memories of the past

CHAPTER FOUR

              Third person POV

After Delilah dashed out of Jenna’s house after their discussion she went back at her apartment. She dialed Derik’s number and crouched herself down on the couch while waiting for the phone to connect. After the third ring Derik picked up his phone .
‘baby girl'
'yea'
‘ what can I do for you'
‘ what can’t I call you to talk or know how you are .must it be that I need something' Delilah whined over the telephone. Derik chuckled before saying.
‘ well well what do you know' ' anyway am good and just finishing up with some paperwork. What are you doing.’
‘ Nothing just got back from Jenna’s.’
'oh'
‘ hey babe would it be okay by you to drop by later on'.
'yea sure, is everything okay?’’
‘ year I just want to see you that’s all. And babe come with a movie that we can watch later on okay.’
‘sure , is that all.’ Derik chuckled. Delilah bit her lip and then as if she recalled something, she said in a happy child’s voice.
'ooh yea I forgot, get me ice cream too .’ she clapped her hands happily. Derik chuckled as he complained of how much of a baby she is and then hang the call up. After the call Delilah was nervous as hell and so she decided to make dinner to lessen her nerves. Once done she went to get a shower and by the time she was done she heard a car pull up at her driveway and she knew that it was Derik . She put on her lobe and went downstairs in a hurry and opened the door for him. He walked inside and engulfed her in his embrace then wrapped his arms around her small waist.

           Delilah’s view

“ Babe” I smiled back at him and rested my head against his chest while mumbling how I missed him.
“ hear let me get that.” I took his briefcase that had his laptop and some documents. I took it upstairs and he followed me while closing the door behind him.
“ Babe did you get the movie and my ice cream.” I asked in a whinny voice. Derik chuckled before pulling me to himself and clashing down his lips onto mine. He tasted of coffee. The kiss Was not passionate or a lust kiss but a brief sweet kiss . O God I so missed his embrace so much.
“ What do I get in return” he asked in a Corny voice while gripping and squeezing my a*s while wiggling his eyebrows at me in a suggestive manner.
“ oh why you so ho*ny piece of human” I said while slapping his chest lightly. He chuckled slightly while nibbling my earlobe while sending a jolt of ecstasy all around my body curling my toes in process.
“Why don’t I run you a bath and then we can have dinner after your bath and watch that movie.” I said pushing him lightly. I needed to be calm for this talk and I cannot loose myself in pleasure at this moment.
“ Ooh come on. Your such a tease you walk up to me in a lobe smelling so sweet and expect me not to do anything.” He Said with a bored expression that’s when I realized that I hadn’t worn anything inside.
“Okay mister times up go get a bath and stop sulking and maybe if we Finnish that movie early I can fulfill your needs.” I say in what I suppose my seductive voice suggestively while wiggling my eyebrows which in no doubt looked hideous I have tried to wiggle my eyebrows like him but to no avail.
Without another word he dashed towards the bathroom immediately chuckling while saying I better keep the end of my deal. After that I decided to wear something inside and I put on my lacey red panty and bra then took one of Derik’s hoods and put it on then put on a denim blue short while pairing it with Nike white socks. All done I put on my slippers and walk downstairs to set the table.
After which I prop down and not long after Derik comes down while wearing one of his many shorts while pairing it with a hood and some grey socks since it’s in the November’s the weather is a bit down.
“by any chance is there a reason for you cooking my favorite dessert.” Derik asked while stuffing his face with the velvet cake I had made earlier. I can tell that he’s onto something as I rarely cook that dessert since I think it’s time consuming and I prefer ordering it rather than cooking.
“ What!?, can’t I just pleas my boyfriend or is it a crime.” I questioned innocently hoping he wouldn’t catch on to the lie.
“ I know you well, the movie, my favorite dessert then your behavior, you look tense there’s something you are not telling me.” He Said confidently. How the h*ll am I gonna get out of this. Oh I know.
“ Babe so what you’re saying is that I only treat you better when something is up . You know what forget about that movie and also I’ve lost my appetite.” I say in my angry voice hoping he will fall for it and he does as I try to get up from the chair and go back to my room. Derik seemed startled for a while by my outburst but he quickly comes up to me and tries to apologize. Oh this is fun playing the guilt card with him.
I walk out leaving him behind cause I know he will follow and as for the appetite I lost it a while back as my nerves are a wreck at this point.
Inside the bedroom I plop down on my bed and lay down on my stomach while stuffing my face on the pillow and shouting so that it’s muffled. I hate using the guilt card on him but I hate that he knows me very well. After about ten minutes Derik opens the door and I don’t dare look up so that he can believe that am mad. Minutes later I feel the bed dip on my other side and I know it‘s him. I so want to cuddle with him but I must make my point, though he doesn’t have any of that. He pulls me on to him and wraps his arms around me. I don’t say anything or object at all we lay there for a while before he speaks again.
“ D I know that you are not mad you’re trying to avoid something so come out with it cause the guilt thing will not work on me.” Derik says and now I know I cannot change his mind. And since am not ready to talk now I just wrap my arms Around his waist and lay my head on his chest while listening to his heartbeats. Soon the silence engulfs us.
“ so I take it that you are not going to tell me.” Derik asks and I just pull myself closer to him and close my eyes.
I've just ignored him yet there was one time I had given him a lecture on ignorance. Back then he had troubles with work and his father as well and anytime I asked he would ignore me now am doing the exact same thing. Sorry love.
Soon darkness engulfs me.
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When I woke up the following morning I was no longer snuggled in Derik’s arms. His back was facing my back and you can imagine the amount of space that was left in between us. What’s the use of sleeping in when am not snuggled in his warm body. Ah!
I got up from the bed made my way to the bathroom after finishing up my bathroom businesses I walked downstairs to the kitchen to make us some breakfast. I washed up the dishes that were in the sink those used last night and decided to make some mandazi's while at it I kind of dazed and as a result the hot oil burnt my wrist as I was adding some pieces in the hot oil. “Ooh my f***ing mother that hurts like a b**ch.” I screeched while rubbing my now red wrist. I almost started crying from the pain.
But I guess that was only a trigger since I hadn’t spoken to Derik yet and I feared the worst after our conversation and still with him turning his back to me. I sigh and take a deep breath to suppress my emotions the last thing I need is to break down right now. Maybe am overreacting. After I finish frying the mandazi’s I fry some eggs and bacon and set the table. As am setting the table Derik walks down. Oh no he’s dressed that can only mean he is leaving. Now all my emotions that I’ve been suppressing are starting to surface and I start to panic. He cannot leave without us talking.
He walks towards the door even without saying goodbye to me . He wont even have his breakfast. Son of a b**ch does he not know how I’ve put so much effort in making this breakfast I even got myself burnt in the process. Now am hyperventilating. Even my wrist starts to ache and I cannot keep the tears in anymore. Am a mess I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I guess it’s my fears catching up with me. That if I reject his offer he is gonna leave me like he is doing so now. Without thinking I rush to him and hug him from behind. “ Please don’t go."" Please don’t leave me.” Now I’ve officially lost it . I think to myself while scolding my brain. Stupid! Stupid! But my brain seems not to obey anything I tell it . “Please Derik don’t go.” I chant behind his back. Derik sighs and turns around. “‘D’ I’m not leaving am just going out for work.” I know he’s lying today is on Saturday and any weekend that he is in town he rarely goes to his office which they’re very few. He is normally outside the country for his business which he normally travels Fridays.
“Please Derik don’t leave. Don’t go. Don’t leave me please.” I say and pull away from him. I sit down on the floor by the wall and start chanting this sentence over and over again while hitting the back of my head on the wall. I bring my knees to my chest and lay my head on my knees.
After this incident I really think I have an issue. That’s if I make it. Please don’t let it be bipolar. I think to myself. I know am totally overreacting but what can I do. Seriously though I need to get checked maybe I have another condition otherwise how do you explain this tantrum I just threw. Now Derik Is totally gonna leave me. How can he date me with all that tantrum I just threw now. Maybe he also thinks I have another condition. My self talk ends when Derik crouches down next to me. He scopes me and walks towards our room. He sits me down on the bed and pulls the cover over me and then goes back to change his clothes in order to assure me his ‘psychotic' girlfriend that he is not leaving. Yes I’ve diagnosed myself as a psycho after that tantrum I’ve just pulled out there