Mr.Styles

Heartbroken And Confused

   

   I get in the car with Harry. No words leave either of our mouths the whole ride to his house. I want to refuse ,but I need someone right now. I'm not understanding what I possibly could've done wrong. Is it because I don't deserve happiness.

I snap out of my daze,  noticing Harry tapping on the window. I unbuckle my belt and get out of the car and follow him into the house. I lay on the couch and start crying loudly. Not caring how childish and embarrassing this is.

   Harry rushes over to me and craddles me.

*20 minutes later*

   I finally stop blubbering like a baby. Harry held me the whole time. Finally he says, "babe what's wrong?".
 
   " I went on a date with Luke and he has a baby and a girlfriend and I thought he was changed but he isn't and I don't know why guys are continuously lying to girls to get what they want." Everything just comes out all at once.
  
  Harry looks at me heartbroken and confused. " I thought we had something Stephanie. What the hell?!?" Now he's become angry.
 
"Harry we don't stand a chance against society. You're my teacher. Harry for gods sake you're 25 and I'm 15. What makes you think we could actually be a real couple!!"
  
   I don't feel bad at all for yelling at him. He's being insane.

    " Stephanie you have to go home now...."

  He only said those last words to me before he drove me home. He drove off before I could even say "Thanks".

   I search in my bra for my keys. Not caring to do it in a casual way. I can't find it. Shit it must've slipped out onto Harry's couch. I walk around the house into my mom's garden and look into the purple lilacs. I find the fake one and pull it out and at the bottom it's a box with a spare key.

   I use the spare key to go into the house. I yell , " I'm home". I don't hear anyone little feet running to the door , or any other replies. I guess they're gone. Good I've had a long day I don't need anymore distractions.

    I go to my room. I take a shower. After my shower I just put on a sweater and lay in bed. I stare at the ceiling thinking about how fucked up things are right now.
 

  I don't really know if I love Harry or if it's just a stupid crush. I know for sure I lust after him ,but I want more than that.

    Too tired to think slumber takes over me.

*The next morning*

   I wake up to loud laughing. Assuming it's my mother because she's the loudest person in the house, I run down the stairs. Hopefully there's breakfast.

   I stop in my tracks as I'm entering the kitchen. I see Harry and my mother standing there talking and laughing. For some reason this angers me and I start screaming.

"Mom what the hell?!?!?"

  "Stephanie calm down right now! Don't be so shocked Harold has told me everything." She smirks.

She continues, "Unaware to you Harold is my best friend."

I stand there with my mouth open.The only words I could think of were,

"Mom stop calling him "Harold" like he's some old guy."

  Harry finally says something, "Well compared to you babe I am an old guy."

I look him in the eyes and smile a little. I see the hurt and pain in his eyes. I really hurt him last night. To know I caused Harry so much pain it breaks my heart.
  

     I guess if I care so much right now I truly am in love with Harry. I never thought I would love someone  wayy older than me and especially not my teacher.

  

      My mom grabs my hand and drags me further into the kitchen closer to the island where Harry is. We're on opposite sides and my mom says, " OK I'm gonna leave you two love birds to talk bye bye now.." She runs off all excited. Jesus Christ what has my mother gotten me into now.

I stare at my nails. "Sooooo how are you Harry..?"

"Cut the small talk Stephanie!" He whisper yells.

"You know you really hurt me last night. I thought we were gonna find a way for us to work. Doesn't seem like there is an "us".

"I can ex-" I'm cut off.

"Why Stephanie?!?..Why'd you go on a date with that stupid little boy. I wanna bash his head into the concrete over and over for making you cry." His eyes went dark.

I touch his hand hoping to calm him down. It worked. He seemed less tense. "I went on a date with Luke  because I was being an idiot."

"I was fighting so hard to hide the feelings I have for you because I didn't know that your feelings were just as strong as mine."

"Stephanie why would you think that?" He says confused.
  

     "I love you Stephanie. I can't stop thinking about you. I know it's early for the 'I love yous' but I can't suppress my feelings for you Stephanie."

I start smiling so hard my face starts hurting. I run over to Harry and begin kissing him. We're soon interrupted by one of my brothers....

"Old man Harold putting the moves on my sister." Kian stands in the doorway with a smirk on his face.

"Hello Kian" Harry says giving him the evil eye.

I stand there blushing and shocked.
"What the hell everyone in this family knew about Harry except for me?!?"
 

"Stephanie you were with Dad when Old Man Harold came around"

"Hey Kian! My boyfriend is not old stop calling him that his name is Harry."

"Jeez Old Man Haz get your security off my ass." Kian says walking away laughing.

I take off my house shoe and throw it at him and hide behind Harry. Kian turns around and says, "Your boyfriend can't protect you forever."

Harry laughs and turns around "I'll protect you from anyone even your idiot brother."

I giggle and peck his lips one more time. "Let's go to my room I'm in the mood for cuddles."

Harry laughs "Whatever you want babe"

We climb the mountains(the stairs) to my room.

I lay on my bed and Harry comes to lay next to me. Harry lays his arm over me affectionately.

   "You know babe I didn't get much sleep last night I'm gonna take a nap." I smile loving how perfect this moment is.

   "Okay babe." I say as I play with his curls. I kiss his nose and close my eyes soon falling asleep.