𝐛𝐮𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐥𝐲 // 𝐤. 𝐛𝗼𝐤𝐮𝐭𝗼

𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥

'why'

'why'd you leave me'

'why didn't you listen'

'did you not love me enough to stay'

'was i a burden to you'

'why, mom'

'why'

i woke up to the sound of my alarm going off. i had a pounding headache the night before and it didn't seem to go away overnight.
i turned off my alarm and snuggled into my blanket.

i didn't want to get up. i couldn't get up. i tried but i just couldn't. it was so hard.

i heard footsteps nearing towards my door followed with a soft knock.

"y/n?"

i heard my aunts muffled voice on the other side of the door. i watched as the door knob turned and she let herself in.

"hey", she said giving me a sympathetic smile.

"ya know it's your first day of school", she giggled trying to lighten the mood.

i just stared into the distance.

"listen i know you're going through a hard time right now, but you really need to get up."

"i'll drive you to school if that's what you'd prefer."

"it's fine. i'll walk."

"okay. well i'm making breakfast so be down in 30", she said patting my arms before heading out the door.

i got out of bed and headed to my bathroom. i turned on the lights and looked into the mirror.

'who is that'

i turned and looked at the shower. unmotivated but willing to make my aunt happy, i took a quick shower. i threw on my uniform and brushed my teeth completely ignoring the mess i wore on my head.

i grabbed my bag and headed downstairs where my aunt was. she obviously cringed at the sight of my poorly worn uniform and messy hair, but didn't say anything.

i sat at the table and stared at my plate. i didn't want to eat anything, but i didn't want to disappoint my aunt. i took a bite out of my waffle and slowly began chewing it.

my aunt who sat across from me just stared at the sight.

"y'know, when me and your mom were younger our mom would never let us have waffles for breakfast."

i looked up at her with a confused expression.

"yeah, it was like some forbidden rule in our house, we could only eat pancakes. as soon as i moved out i made sure to stock up on waffles", she giggled.

i faked a smile.

"your mom loved you, y/n, i know she did", she said rubbing my arms with a more serious face.

i gave her a nod before eating my food.

i knew my aunt was also going through a hard time as well so i tried not to be selfish.

"well it's getting pretty close to time, maybe you should head out now."

"okay."

i grabbed my bag and walked towards the door. i slipped on my shoes and was a bout to leave before my aunt called my name.

"y/n."

i turned around.

"try to make the best out of today. okay", she said faking a smile.