𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐒 , dreamwastaken✔️

17 | FIGHT OR FLIGHT

A/N: thank you for 59.7k reads! i love you all <3
100K HERE WE COME !!!!!!

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thank you for bearing with me. coming back to streaming soon, lots of christmas themed stuff! <3
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— TEXTING Jason had always been difficult, due to him often working and not having time to check his phone.

But ever since the night he was supposed to meet you at the restaurant, he had been completely radio silent, not a single word from him.

It was upsetting, really- You had hoped that things could be talked out between the two of you, and you could go back to having your friend.

But it seemed he didn't want that, and you were left in the dark, wondering if you had messed up even worse than what you initially thought.

"Hey... It's me again. If you get this, please call me back... Thanks, J."

The line cuts off, a numbing beep droning into your ear as you sigh, pulling the device away from your ear.

You wanted to get an explanation, but it seemed as though you wouldn't be getting one.

The absence of Jason in your life, the way he had disappeared without a word - It tears at your self-esteem, further proving your decision to not pursue your feelings about Clay.

It seemed as though in the end, inevitably everyone would leave. You were just ticking down the seconds until your other friends walked away too.

Your pessimistic thoughts are interrupted by Delilah standing in your bedroom doorframe, holding a plastic bag in her hand. She waves it at you when you notice she's there, offering a warm and comforting smile.

"I got us some lunch!"

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The grilled cheese sandwiches she had made were heavenly, and you had enjoyed every single bite.

Delilah's cooking had made you realise just how amazing home-cooked meals could be, and you made a mental note to start doing it more, and keep yourself healthy.

You hadn't been looking after yourself recently, and everybody could tell how tired your body had been, calls with your friends usually filled with you yawning, or zoned out.

You knew people were still worried about you, your fans included. After everything that had happened, you knew you couldn't let it destroy every single part of your life.

"I think I want to go back to streaming."

The words sound foreign on your lips, despite you having done the job for a numerous amount of years.

Delilah nearly chokes on the food she's eating, obviously a little too excited about that idea.

She composes herself, putting down her second lot of sandwiches. "Are you sure? I mean- I want you to return to work but if you're still not feeling up to it-"