Erin Lindsay - Back to home

Danger - Part 1

After the park Erin and Jay went home with their daughter, bathed her, had dinner and put her to sleep. Erin sat next to Jay, the weather was nice and they started talking about everything but the more they talked the closer they came to an argument.

"Why?" Jay asks, she had already told her why she didn't tell him she was leaving but never said why she was gone.

"What?" She asks confused and looks at Jay.

"Because you left?" He asks curiously. He is sitting on the couch and turns to face him there. Erin looks away, it was not a problem to count, she runs her hand through her hair.

"Bunny ..." Erin gets up. "I left for her. She was going to be arrested and to protect her the FBI offered me a deal, me for Bunny." She says and goes to the balcony and Jay accompanies her.

"What's it?" He asks when she is silent.

"I always wanted her to love me, to be a mother to me, to feel guilty, maybe I was not a good daughter and so I always did my best to take care of her, keep her alive and then she would love me." Erin says looking at the street thoughtfully, Jay doesn't know what to say just listens.

"And then when they said she was going to be arrested, it would be me or her I thought if I should do this. Idiot right?" She laughs and Jay shakes his head, still paying attention.

"I couldn't leave my city, my job, even if I was at risk of losing it, I could manage it, leave my intelligence team, they were my family, Voight and you" she says and looks at him.

"So I decided to ask for your help, even though you were my partner and when I saw you I couldn't, I needed to make that decision for myself and then I left. When I got to my apartment I thought about what Annie said about moving, starting over and then I tried calling you again but remembering that you left made me think you didn't love me "still in silence Jay denies it again and approaches her.

"My job was at risk, the only man I loved might not feel the same way about me, Hank would always support me and Bunny was about to go to prison, so I decided to start over. And warn you? Answer you? I couldn't, couldn't look back, I would give up everything for you, I couldn't hurt you. " she says and Jay feels the need to interrupt.

"Hurt me? Did you think that not answering me, leaving, just disappearing from my life wouldn't hurt me?" He says a little angry.

"Jay ..."

"No Erin ... I know I was wrong when I left but I didn't want to cause you any more problems, I wanted to be yours entirely and I didn't want you to worry about my problems ..." He says next to her and is sincere.

"I imagine that when two people decide to live together they face the problems together" Erin says upset to this day.

"I know, so when I heard about all your problems I wanted to be there, I wanted to support you, I was going to ask you to marry me because I didn't want you to feel alone ever again and then you left, you didn't even think about how much to stay without your information it would hurt, how much it hurt to see our apartment empty, how much I always expected you to answer, respond and tell me you were fine. " Jay says now both eyes are in tears.

"I know ... Now I understand how wrong I was. Now with Camille I could see that I was never to blame for Bunny not loving me. Stupid for not knowing how to show my love for you, having gone without saying goodbye and especially for Cami I'm sorry "she says and lowers her head.

"I know it wasn't easy and I also apologize for not showing my love for you," Jay says.

"Okay" Erin says "I think we've matured" she approaches Jay. Jay nods, his hands wrap around Erin, their faces touch and in seconds their lips come together, Erin's tears come down, he walks away.