Kidd And Erica (behind the scenes)

Give me a break...

Time is 6:40 In Lagos
               8:40 In Istanbul Turkey
Location: Ericas Apartment Lagos
                  Kidd's Hotel Suite Istanbul Turkey

Kidd and Erica are approximately 6hrs 30m away from one another and they're really feeling the heat of separation, KiddWaya tries to live his best life in the beautiful city Istanbul, going shopping, went on a food pilgrimage, took a little detour to London spent a few days to meet up with friends, got back just in time to Host The 2Baba in Istanbul , pampered himself with daily spa treatments, washed away his sins in the steaming sauna, worked out, visited the shooting range, wined and dined like the king he is, did more shopping, as Kidd seems to be enjoying his getaway Erica was hitting studios for shoots, signing deals, getting contracts, securing bags like the boss she is, also engaging on social media with her fans, Erica loves communicating with all her fans it's always a fun time for her, till it wasn't anymore, it was all fun and games till words were said, intentions were misunderstood and feelings got hurt, leaving  our heroine on the defensive...

FaceTime Mine.....

FaceTime from My Queen

Kidd: "hey, ba....."
Erica: "I'm tired..... I'm tired of everything"
Kidd: "calm down, first, breath"
Erica: "if I hear the words calm down one more time I'll really lose it, I'm tired of people telling me to calm down or to rest, are they my therapist or my mother?"
Kidd: "I can't y'all to you when you're like this"
Erica: "I don't need you talk, you just need to listen"
Kidd: "no, baby there's nothing you're going to say that I haven't heard you say, it's my fault,"
Erica: "don't you dare patronize me Kidd, I won't take it from you, not you"
Kidd: "then baby what do you want me to say, you don't listen you're so stubborn"
Erica: "I don't know why I expected you to take my side in the first place, you're always the good one I'm always the villain, when I was only trying to defend you"
Kidd: "that whole 'other half' thing was fucking insane, I didn't even take them seriously, I wasn't even angry, I swear Erica I was not bothered"
Erica: "Kidd don't lie, it did bother you, you just always act like it doesn't and it pisses me off, I know you were upset and you have the right to be, I don't know why they feel they can tell us how to feel or how to act, can you imagine coming to my Dm and ..... the entitlement"
Kidd: "babe...."
Erica: "Kidd you should see what they're saying, and I'm not allowed to get angry?,I don't get to be angry ? am I a fucking plastic doll?, Kidd I have feelings and their words hurt......I can hurt them too, I can, what is it?, is it only me?, no, no what have I done that is so bad?, for Christ sake, what is it that Erica Nlewedim has done?, who did I harm in my past life that still won't forgive me that I'm going through all this.... and you're not fucking here, you're not here" *sobs sobs*
Kidd: "baby, don't... stop, look at me, Erica don't drop your phone, babe"
Erica: "no please I don't want you to see me like this" sobbing continues
As Kidd listens to Ericas silent sobs his heart breaks and for the first time he regrets getting on the plane that took him away from Her
Kidd: "why are you crying? Stop it... Stop now... Erica"
Erica: "I can't do this" she whispers in between sobs
Kidd: "can't do what?"
Erica: "everything,.."
Kidd: "even us"
Erica: "us,.... Kidd where are you right now, Istanbul having a blast while I'm here drowning, is it always going to be like this, I take in all the bullets while you just find a way to remove yourself?, and you talk of us, what a joke, go and find your 'other half' to feed that to,"
Kidd: "you know what your problem is? You're a fucking drama queen, I'm not going to sit here and listen to you blame me again and victimize yourself,.."
Erica: "how can you say that?.... i...."
Kidd: "No, you've spoken now it's time you listen, me calling my long time friend my other half isn't what started this mess and you know it, it's how you easily fall into these traps I've always advised you on your Tweets, Babe be mindful of the things you say, if you see or hear something that pisses you off or hurts your feelings, you don't have to respond at that moment, Erica you can't start a Twitter battle and expect things not to go south I tell you this everyday you're just giving the haters what they want , and making you lash out unnecessarily"
Erica: "so you're also saying I shouldn't be angry"
Kidd: "fuck no, I got mad when they came at me for my playlist, and how did I respond ? by telling them to kiss my ass with my trip to Turkey, I shut them up"
Erica: "a trip we were supposed to go together but you left me because you were angry I didn't cancel my meet and greet"
Kidd: "you're the one that left early In the morning without talking things through, and I refuse to follow you like a fucking puppy, you misunderstood something that I did and instead of talking about it you walked out on me and our trip"
Erica: "so everything is my fault abi? I'm always the bad guy"
Kidd: "stop it jor, I hate it when you get like this, why did you even call me if you were just gonna blame me and play victim"
Erica: "you're right as usual, me too I don't know when or how I became like this, linking everything to you, what I didn't want to happen, happened.... do you know why I keep insisting on building my brand its because I'm trying tell myself to convince myself to live for me, to think of me, to do me, build ME, but all that goes out the window once you're involved
If you're dragged it's because of me if I'm dragged it's because of you, mostly.... I'm supposed to be this independent, self sufficient woman... but I make a spectacle of myself with my emotions that I can't seem to keep under control or hide and I will not apologize for it Kidd,I'm human I'm not perfect, and I'm going through a lot, I didn't plan this, I didn't plan to fall this deeply for you, I got into BBNaija because I though it'll be a fun social experiment, and good for my career , I didn't know I'd surrender myself to a man and be insulted daily for it, I wanted fame, not this, because I don't know what this is, If I'm with you trouble if I'm not with trouble I can't win, I'm tired"sobbing continues
Kidd: "so you're saying I stop you from being independent, and self sufficient?, How? I don't get, stop crying now, talk to me, how have I affected your independence?"
Erica: "look what happened when you left, all hell broke lose, and I'm sort of getting used to getting judged for everything that I do, but what I can't get used to is being away from you apparently , I won't be feeling this bad if you came back yesterday like you said you would in fact this wouldn't have happened , I anticipated your return just for you to say you're not able to, then I go to Twitter and I see rubbish.... how can I be walking on eggshells regarding what I say about my career or relationship how is it their business or what will they do? beat me? Let them Unstan now who is forcing them, saying 'I need to know how to behave' who the fuck are they?my mother or my father 'I disappointed them' pele ooo, I'm an adult I can do and say what I want, my true people will understand me, and if I end up losing my followers it won't be the first time I've been abandoned anyway, we were born alone we will die alone, las las everybody get their own grave"

Kidd chuckles

Kidd: "your pigin is so bad hahaha"
Erica: "shuttup you traitor, I don't even want to see you again stay in Istanbul with all your friends and food, you know you're very selfish right? I'm here suffering and you're posting food, and parties with pretty girls, knowing I'll see it, rubbish"
Kidd: "how? You've blocked me remember"
Erica: "don't be smart, Sha the good thing is I can't possibly be new to being alone I'm used to it"
Kidd: "you have me Erica"
Erica: "till you decide to go to Russia next abi, please you're just like them, fake ass promises, they promise to love you, to be with you from dusk till dawn then at the first chance they get they leave ... I'm done"
Kidd: "you can't be done, you love them"
Erica: "ugh please I'm done with you too"
Kidd: "can I ask you a question, and I want to see your face so show me your face"
Erica: "I don't want to,I look terrible, my eyes are swollen"
Kidd: "I hate seeing you cry, but even when you cry you're still very beautiful , now look at me"

Erica picks up her phone from her lap and brings it to her face to staring at Kidd through her screen

Erica: "what?"
Kidd: "do you love me?"
Erica: "what kind of question is that"
Kidd:  "just answer me, yes or no"
Erica: "give me a break, I don't need this right now Kidd abeg, free me"
Kidd: "it's a simple question"
Erica: "you want me to say no right? So you can be free of me right?"
Kidd: "answer the fucking question Erica, stop evading" Kidd looks into her swollen eyes through his screen, his hands shaking
Erica: " but why, just tell me why then I'll answer you"
Kidd: "fuck, okay because I want to know if it's worth it"
Erica: "if I'm worth it"
Kidd: "all of it, the drags, the pressure all of it because what you said about me stopping you from being the woman you want to be got me thinking of why I broke up with you in the house,
Erica: "How...."
Kidd: "do I make her happy?, I seem to only hurt her, I make her more upset than I make her happy, I'm asking myself those same questions"
Erica: "Kidd if you want to end things, stop with all the bullshit I'm too mentally drained for it,"
Kidd: "what do you want? do you want to end things? Do you still feel for me?, am I still your safe place? Are you still in love with me Erica?"
Erica: "I kept going on and on about wanting you here and needing you, and...."
Kidd: "that's not what I asked, you can need someone and even want them without loving them you know, I'm going to ask you for the last time and if you don't give me a straight answer I will never ask you again, Erica are you still In love with me?"
Erica: .......