Kidd And Erica (behind the scenes)

Give me a break Pt2(God Got Us)

Location Lagos,
Istanbul ,

Erica:......
Kidd:......
As Kidd awaits Ericas response to his question, with every second that goes by Kidd feels his heart sink, he pulls on his earlobe and itches the sides of his nose as he always does whenever is uncomfortable or nervous, he holds his phone with a tight grip staring into his screen at Erica who just stares back, Erica suddenly covers her eyes with her left hand then her mouth to muffle the sound las of her sobs as tears roll down her eyes, Kidd is crushed, left utterly speechless, what does those tears mean? Could it really be over? ...

Kidd: "Er..."
Erica: "of course I love you, of course I'm still in love with you, did I ever stop, can I even stop? *sniff sniff*
Kidd: "fuck!!! Why'd you that?....I thought... I thought.... when you started to cry again, ugh babe don't ever do that to me again, fucking hell"
Erica: "what, wait you thought what?"
Kidd: "why were you crying, why did you cry?"
Erica: "because..... ugh... I don't know okay I'm just so sad right now"
Kidd: "you're not going to ask if I love you too,you're not even the least bit curious how all this have affected my feelings for you, or you just don't care?"
Erica: "I don't care, I know I love you and if you love me too that's great but even if you don't it's not like it'll change the way I feel about you, that's why I didn't ask, nothing will change my feelings for you, nothing"
Kidd: "I love you"
Erica: "okay, that's cool" a shadow of a smile appears on her face
Kidd: "no seriously I love you, I fucking love you so much that I can't put it in words, and all this drama just makes me fall deeper in love with you because despite everything you haven't changed, you're still the Erica I met in the house, Fun, loving, stubborn, annoying, emotional, playful, ambitious and passionate,"
Erica: "you thought I'd change after the house? Like become snobby or what?"
Kidd: "no, like.... forget it, but you did say there were plenty guys that want you outside, that there's a queue"
Erica: "see the things you remember"she chuckles and removes her wig, gives her head a good scratch

Kidd: "I was actually scared, You weren't saying anything and then you started to cry... I was like man, she's done, I thought I fucking blew it" he used his free hand to wipe his face
Erica: "I honestly don't know why I cried, I guess I'm just really sad today, and you asking me if it was all worth it I just....., I think I cried because even though yes I'm in love with you, I.... I don't think I want to,"

Kidds relief was short lived, as his nerves came rushing back
Kidd: "why?"
Erica: "because I feel like.." Erica licks her lips looking for the words to describe how she's feeling
Kidd: "like you depend on me or what?"
Erica: "Ugh No, I don't know, maybe.... ugh I don't want to make it look like all my problems or everything is about you, but yeah I guess because after getting involved with you, yes I've been happy very happy, but with so many people saying I'm either with you for your money or you're too good for me, or that I'm cheap and easy like I've never had to go through that before and even though you seem to be cause you're also the only one that makes all the hurt go away, when you hold me I feel nothing can harm me, I feel protected and safe, when you kiss me I can't think like my mind goes blank, when you look at me everyone else just disappears so even if the wise thing to do is to stay away from you, I can't, I love you but I don't know if loving you is what's right for me right now, do you get?"
There was a long silence with both just staring back at each other before Kidd clears his throat

Kidd: "yeah I get you, you don't even know how well I understand, but babe there's nothing wrong in depending on someone that cares for you, I care for you, so it's okay, I depend on you too, Erica we obviously didn't plan this, I definitely did not plan to fall for anybody, like even though I manage to let someone in, it wasn't supposed to get this deep, because I told you I have so much of myself I need to prove to the world, that I'm not some rich kid living off his billionaire dad, I have to make my own, put my mark in the world help people before thinking of sharing my life with someone, you don't even know how you've fucked up my whole process, because now I just don't plan my future, I plan our future, how things will benefit us, so it's okay to depend on me I want you, I've got your back always"