╰─ FOR YOU; jra

chapter twelve

THE LONELY GIRL arrived at the park. She was a mess. It was dark and cold, but she didn't care. Fleur felt bad for wanting to get it over with as fast as possible, but she was growing worse with every passing moment. Worry was eating her up and panic was taking over her mind.

When she spotted a long haired girl, her mind went blank for a second. The girl was looking around the park, and pulled her phone out. Her hands were typing furiously, and Fleur looked down to see multiple messages popping up on her screen.

They were from Kaya. She had to be the brown haired girl. Fleur knew Kaya couldn't see her due to how dark it was, but slowly walked over anyways.

"Looking for someone?" She casually asked, causing the other girl to jump a bit.

"Oh my gosh yes, you scared me." She laughed.

"Hmm... are they by any chance named Fleur?"

Her eyes went wide and recognition filled them in an instant.

"Wait, you're telling me you? Are you- But-" Kaya stuttered, still shocked.

Fleur simply nodded, a tired smile forming on her lips.

Suddenly, Kaya jumped up and hugged Fleur tightly. Fleur was taken aback but hugged back nevertheless. It felt so calming to hold her friend. She had never gotten a hug from anyone else than her mother.

"I can't believe it!!" Kaya shouted, pulling away. There was a huge grin on her face.

"You're not mad?" Fleur questioned. It was her turn to be confused.

"Mad? Why would I be mad?!"

"Well, maybe because-"

"I'm going to stop you before some dumb excuse comes out of your mouth. This is the best surprise ever! Wait, are you really here?"

"Yep. At least, I think I am." She sighed.

"You look tired." Kaya pointed out, lines of worry slowly showing on her smooth skin.

"Is it that obvious?" Fleur frowned, not wanting to lie to Kaya.

"Come on, let's go somewhere like walmart and you can tell me." She smiled, making Fleur smile too.

"I don't usually tell my problems to anyone, but at this point it doesn't matter really. And I trust you."

Kaya smiled again proudly, swinging a hand over Fleur's shoulder as they walked.

On the way, Fleur told Kaya everything. All the feelings and stories that she had locked up over the years came pouring out of her. Kaya listened without interrupting, and shook her head sympathetically.

Fleur told her about the hate, and how it all started. She told Kaya that she fell into depression at first, and even did self harm for a short amount of time. She told her how she grew emotionless on the surface, and how she had to pretend all the time to make up to other's expectations. Fleur mentioned her diary and that it had gone missing, and that she wrote down every single thing she felt over the years in there.

She felt numb and emotionless.

When she was finished, she noticed that her face was wet with tears. Her heart was beating fast and the surrounding building became blurry. She found it hard to breath.

Fleur felt both relieved and scared. She had just told her friend her entire life, all the secrets and struggles, everything. Kaya was her only friend. She had never trusted anyone except her mother.

"Fleur? Fleur, are you ok?" The echo of Kaya's voice sounded far away. "Oh no, you're having a panic attack! Fuck!"

The last thing she heard was someone shouting her name, before she closed her eyes and everything went black.

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"Come on let's go!"

"Coming!"

The five excited boys rushed into Jonah's messy hotel room after their show had ended. They all found a place to sit, while Corbyn had the book in his hands.

"Finally! Let's read some drama!" He laughed as the others cheered. Jack sat next to him, urging him to open it already.

"Alright, this is the first page, it say it was written 2 years ago." Jack announced.

Corbyn started reading it loudly. "Dear diary, I have no idea where to start this. i'm just going to get straight into it because I need to somehow get rid of these feelings. I feel so happy that me and Thomas started dating. I'm glad that he's here for me, because I have no one else. I hope that everything will work out. I'm also excited because I just released my 3rd single! it already has over a hundred thousand views on spotify, that's crazy!! that's so many people! I love making music and it's all I've ever wanted to do. it just makes me so happy, and I want to one day make others happy by making music. well enough of this sappy inspirational stuff, i'll update on my life soon. see you later! - Fleur."

"That was boring." Jonah commented.

"Yeah, but that's how every story starts." Daniel nudged him.

Zach rolled his eyes and Corbyn continued.

"Dear diary, it's been 2 months, and everything's going so well! I've never been happier. I got a fricken record deal!! Can you believe it?? And Thomas and I are still together. he's been supportive but also a bit distant. i'm sure that's normal though. mama and I started crying when I got the phone call, we were so happy and she's proud of me. I can't wait to start making music. - Fleur"

"Boring." Jonah said once again.

"I can just feel something coming. Besides, this is when she wasn't famous yet." Jack shot back.

"Just keep reading!" Zach threw a pillow at Corbyn.

"Alright, jeez."

A/N

andddd now the juicy things will come heheh

(once again me from the future, why did I write "hehehe"
everywhere like-wtf)

2020 nov. 14.