[𝐒𝟐] 𝐈𝐝𝐨𝐥 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐲𝐥𝐞𝐬; 𝐁𝐢𝐠 𝐇𝐢𝐭 𝐄𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟑𝟔: 𝐌𝐀𝐌𝐀 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟐

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❝the way I see it, if you want the rainbow, you gotta put it up with the rain❞
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[Fast Forwarded] 8 December/ Twins are 12 weeks old. 3 months.

I walked into the dressing with Jae-hyuk and our bodyguards. As soon as I entered the dressing room, I plopped on the couch and exhaled.

I am currently in Japan for MAMA 2022. Yesterday afternoon, I reached Japan and went straight here to do my rehearsal.

Today, I'm going to perform at MAMA and after MAMA, I'm going straight to the airport and go home to Seoul because I can't be apart from the twins.

Jin's parents are taking care of Jun-Ha and Jun-Seo in Seoul. This is my first time being away from the twins. This is my first time sleeping at another place without the twins.

I still can't bring the twins outside because they are still 3 months. Well, yeah. time does fly very fast. They are already 12 weeks old.

I never brought the twins out to the public except to the doctor's office for a checkup and a little stroll outside my apartment at the park.

I barely have enough sleep last night. I was worried, scared, anxious at the same time. Worried about my performance today and also worried about the twins.

Scared that I will fail this performance today and scared that the twins will cry since neither Jin and I are in Seoul and they can't stop crying.

Anxious about MAMA and also about the twins. Being away from the twins really makes me worry. Even just for two days and a night.

I still haven't told my fans, Jin's fans that we had twins. We're going to announce it in New Year. We will have an official photo of the twins and Jin and me.

We're going to post the photo and wish our fans New Year and Merry Christmas. I'm pretty sure that our fans will be surprised knowing that we had twins.

"Mia," I heard Jae-hyuk said.

"Nae?" I replied and turn to look at him.

"You need to get ready for the red carpet already," he said.

"Ah, okay," I said and stood up from the couch.

I took my phone from my backpack and then walk to the dressing table. Eojin and the other stylist were laying out their tools on the dressing table. I sat in front of the dressing table and look at my phone.

I smiled watching the video that Ahreum just sent to me. I'm a little bit relief when watching the video that Ahreum sent to me.

The twins were giggling together whenever eomma kisses and played with them. At least they aren't cranky and doesn't want to drink milk.

"Does motherhood change you?" Eojin asked me. I chuckled.

"A lot," I said.

"It's been three months and I think that you've become quieter than before," he said.

"Ah, jinjja?" I asked him and laughed.

"Yeah. You're like worried most of the time," he said. I laughed.

"I know. I am worried all the time whenever the twins aren't with me," I said.

"You became really like a mother already," Eojin said. I smiled.

"Motherhood does change me. Maybe when they are already one or two years old, my worries will lessen. I hope," I said.

"They are going to grow up faster than you expect. You won't realize it," he replied. I chuckled.