Stay Gold {O2L}

15 Days Continued

Connor Franta

I was going to murder that asshole Jonah. 

He didn't get it, no one did, and now he was ruining my relationship and breaking the heart of possibly the best girl in the world.

I was confused a week ago, I didn't know what direction I wanted to go in. I was attracted to guys but Candace, man Candace, she changed everything. I was close to posting a coming out video on YouTube I was so sure of my sexuality, and then she walked into my life and blew every guy I met out of the water.

But last week I was nervous, what happens when she leaves? What if we break up? I was terrified of losing her, of sleeping alone, and I knew if we broke up I would never find another girl like her. I wanted to make sure I wasn't lonely, and I may have had a few drinks, so I grabbed a random boy and kissed him. 

Little did I know that boy was my ex-boyfriend. And his brother, Jonah, was there recording the whole thing. He was out for blood because I left his brother broken hearted when I refused to come out.

I guess the cat was out of the bag now, to 8 of my closest friends and my girlfriend at least.

"Candace, I was afraid of losing you" I tried to touch her, reach out and grab that beautiful girl that was so happy just a few minutes ago, but she jerked her arm away.

As you could imagine, a huge crowd had been developing around us, and we all had to leave before the fans found out why she was crying and everything was ruined.

JC scooped Candace into his arms, asking fans to politely move as he made his way up to our hotel room, Candace sobbing into his sleeve. I would give anything to not be the cause of those tears, to be the one holding her instead. 

Once we got to the room and JC set her down on the bed, she wiped her remaining tears and gave me a glare. 

"Well you've done the exact opposite by trying not to lose me Connor, consider me lost" she said and looked away, refusing to meet my guilty eyes.

"Connor bro we love you, but you need to leave. She needs time" Kian said and I tried to fight it, tried to get close and to hold her, but she refused my touch. I had gone from someone she loved to someone who plagued her, and I couldn't stand to see how much I had hurt her anymore.

So I agreed, I walked out the hotel door and away from true love. I didn't no where I was going, I lost all direction because I lost her. I would do anything to get her back.

But first I needed to ruin the degenerate Jonah's life, just like he did to mine.