Jamais Vu

Opening Up

Jungkook decided to take the initiative to explain exactly as his hyungs did for him. Jimin is wide eyed for the whole story.

"So.. so we essentially go into a heat, like females?" Jimin whispers.

"Yes, and we've done research on yours as we like to keep track. Yours is typically around april-july on your 24th birthday so we have time before yours starts." Jin smiles reassuringly.

"Have you had yours?" Jimin curiously asks Ara. She blushes and doesn't meet his eyes.

"I- i don't turn 24 until august.." her face is almost as red as her hair.

"That's... you don't ask a female that!" Jin's human ears turn red when he says that.

"I- i'm sorry! I didn't know!" Jimin quickly apologizes making Ara laugh.

"It's not your fault, it's okay" she smiles reassuringly then looks over at everyone else. "When are we gonna bury him?"

There's a silence that falls around the room before Yoongi speaks up.

"We can right now if you want"

"Please" she whispers, getting up to her feet while they get BK's body from the freezer. She felt bad knowing he was in the freezer, but until they buried him he would have rotted.

Everyone gathers in a spot in the backyard while she digs an appropriate hole. Everyone offers to do it for her but she said she has to do it herself.

The mood is heavy, as they watch Ara and Hobi struggle not to fall apart.

"I'm so sorry guys" a voice whispers behind them. Hobi turns and smiles at Namjoon, who respectfully keeps his distance.

"What's wrong with him?" Ara whispers to Hobi.

"He's going through his rut, so he's keeping his distance. He just wanted to be here to express him gratitude and condolences"

"Thank you" Ara whispers quietly, to which Namjoon nods slowly.

Once the hole is dug, Hobi places BK's body inside and between the two of them they slowly cover it up while Jin and Jimin do finishing touches on a makeshift tombstone for him.

When they're finished, Ara brushes the dirt off her hands onto her already dirty pants.

"Do you guys mind?" She whispers softly, holding her phone out. "I wanted to sing something instead of a speech."

"Go ahead Noona" Jungkook whispers softly, coming to sit beside her.

She pushes play on the song and sits cross legged and starts to sing.

Jimin stares at her while she sings, blown away by how good she is.

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Halfway through Jungkook joins her, having recognized the song and Ara smiles in thanks. Jimin comes beside her other side and sits as well, slowly wiping away her tears while she sings. Jimin hates seeing people cry.

"That was beautitul, Ara" Hobi smiles, standing behind her and placing a hand on her shoulder.

"I don't know any other way to convey how much i miss him" she whispers softly. "He was with me since i was 17. He was my best friend"

"He was an amazing person" Hobi whispers and everyone falls into a silence for awhile before Jin offers to buy lunch and have it delivered. Everyone nods and goes inside except for Ara and Hobi.

"I'm gonna miss his energy" Hobi says after awhile.

"Yeah, he sure was the life of the party." Ara smiles softly, recalling the last gathering they went to where BK made everyone laugh. "I know he wouldn't want me to be sad, it's just hard. I feel like a part of me is missing, everytime i breathe every thought everytime i close my eyes i'm reminded of that absence."

Hobi places a comforting hand on her shoulder.

"We are a pack now, Ara. We all will be here every step of the way"

"You're welcome here as long as you want" a voice she recognizes from earlier as Namjoon says by the door. She turns to smile at him.

"Why aren't you going inside?" She asks curiously.

"I uh.. Jin banned me from going back inside cus i may have broke something"  He smiles sheepishly.

"He tends to destroy things when he's nervous and he's never been around a female on his rut so the urge to.. well, be a male kicks in. " he whispers to Ara before turning to Namjoon. "Did you pee on something?"

"N-No! Not yet" Namjoon mumbles before waving at them.
"I'll be in my room until this is over"

Ara nods and looks back over at BK's grave.

"I think you're incredibly brave, Ara. For choosing not to give up and have an after to such a horrific incident" Hobi whispers, smiling at Ara.

"Thanks Hobi. Sometimes, i really don't feel like it" Ara leans into Hobi's warmth and he wraps his arm around her to pull her closer.

"I'm sure he would say so too. You now have a guardian angel" He winks when Ara looks up at him. "Now come on, we need food"

Hobi stands up first and pulls her hands to make her stand before he steers her towards the house.

"Oh good, i was about to come get you. I ordered takeout" Jin passes out chopsticks and everyone digs into the food, making sure to share the most with Jimin and Ara since they're so small.

Ara looks around her makeshift pack and can't help but feel a little better. It's not easy losing your platonic soulmate but she has a feeling these boys won't let her feel sad for too long, and that comforts her.