beauty and the beast | hopekook

Messed up

It's been a month, and to say Jungkook was worried, would really be an understatement. He did try searching for him. When asked Jimin, he latter said Hoseok called in sick that very day he left the younger.

Now, Jungkook was confused why the elder's absence made him worried. It's not like he liked him.

Pushing away these thoughts aside, Jungkook opened the door, to only see his friends coming in.

Namjoon said, "Where's Hoseok? Do you know where he is?"

"No"

"And?"

"And, what else?"

Talking with them was some kind of relieving, even if that didn't make Jungkook any less worried.

"Where..." Jimin started. "Where do you think he is?"

"What? Why are looking at me?" Yoongi seemed irritated. "I don't know"

"Yeah"

While the five of Jungkook's friends were all busy talking about Hoseok, and speculated what might have happened between him and Jungkook, they heard someone crying.

Turns out, it was Jungkook.

He was holding a piece of paper, probably written something over it. And, the others rushed to him to see what it read.

Taehyung snatched the piece of paper from his hand, and read :

"It's Hoseok. Probably, you'd never see me write a letter to you, minus this one. I wanted to inform you about something. I've been living with you for long, long enough to figure out that you don't love me, and long enough to figure out that you'd never love me. That's okay. Namjoon says, not everyone can love him. Maybe, that's the same in my case too. I don't know. But, that never justified why you used to hit me everyday. Maybe I'm not enough for you, or you're angry at your parents. I'm clueless. Sorry though.

Now, when I look back to these days, it's kind of like a feeling of "jamais-vu" you know? It's like feeling something repeatedly, but it still feels like the first time. If we think about it in a way, it's somewhat like : when you love someone and have these expectations that they feel the same, but when they don't, your expectations break into pieces and you realise how much of a fool you were to think that way. But, you don't stop loving the person, you live in the lie that even if it ruins you, you just don't and can't stop. You keep on running.

We think we are used to it but it hurts so bad that it feels like the first time. We try so much to escape these feelings, asking for help but nowhere do we see them coming. Its a complex mix of emotions between letting go, and not letting go. Being lost in confusion, we realise we should leave but we still do run and hope to escape these feelings and get to that person.

I loved you, but you didn't. You were more than enough for me, you were perfect, but I guess I wasn't.

Simple, isn't it?

With that being said, I'm probably going to head out, away from you, for a while or maybe forever. I don't know if we can ever go back to where we first began. I just don't know. I still need some time to think about it. That's all. I need a remedy.

Take care.

I'm sorry, I love you"

And, they all stood dumbfounded.

"You! What did you do to him?" Jimin grabbed Jungkook's collar, making him stand up.

"I.. "

"Don't even talk, please" Namjoon pleaded. "Why did you do it? Hoseok? He was my friend"

"I didn't mean to" Jungkook tried to resonate.

"What? Please shut up"

"Okay, but what now?" They heard Taehyung speak up.

"Honestly, I don't have any idea" Yoongi responded.

Jungkook, out of everything, he couldn't expect Hoseok to love him. All this while the older loved him? He thought that's a lie, but the letter said otherwise. His heartbeat picked up pace when he learned about it all. He didn't know what to do with it. He was, as well, confused with his feelings for Hoseok too.

Jungkook looked up to his friends, he could see that look of disappointment in their eyes. And, that exact moment he realized he messed up big this time.

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A/N : I changed the covers of all the books. Which one do you like the most? 👀

I thought I'd update this book regularly, but I didn't. That's some serious hypocrisy right there 😂