𝐴𝑠𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑙𝑒 ❦ 𝙈𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙖 𝙋𝙤𝙡𝙞𝙗𝙞𝙤

34

Chapter 34
Mwah

Lyn's pov

Me and mattia were walking to my secret spot in the woods

"Lyn I'm tired are we there yet!?"
Mattia whined

"Were almost there"
I said as we we hit the rose circle
Is what I like to call it
It's like a big circle that's surrounded by
Roses on my bushes and on the ground

I love it because all the roses and different colors
Not just red
And it smells like Paradise
And the perfect place to take pictures when golden hour hits

"We're here"
I said as the wind hit us
And the air was clear you could see the beautiful Crystal Clear Lake and the birds chirping
It feels unreal
Like a Disney princess movie
That's what i like about it
It feels unreal
And it's calm
You can come here when your mad
Or when you just want a place to have time to yourself

"This is..."

"beautiful i know"
I said while sitting down

"Why do you come here when you do and why do you keep it a Secret"
Mattia said while sitting next to me

"Because it calms me down..... for example when we and marcos get in arguments this is where i go"
I said

"Hmm"
He hummed

"Or like you know how victor used to hit me"
I said

"Ya"

"Well I would go here and it would take my mind off of that and it would give time for the bruises to stop hurting and my puffy face to go back to normal because i didn't want marcos to know or my mom"
I said
It made me sad to think about those memories
I was scared
And I couldn't tell anyone
So I was left with my thoughts
And I'm not gunna tell him but i have a Journal but marcos calls it a diary
He's never read it
But i would come here when i either didn't know how to tell or Express what I was feeling or i was told I couldn't
I hid my Journal here under a rock under Bush just incase i brang someone like mattia he's nosey anyways i would hide it here so i wouldn't have to go home and get it
But i wrote every feeling that was too big to express
I wrote it down
Feelings too little to express
I wrote it down
Feelings that i pushed down deep deep inside of me
I wrote it down
Like if you read it you wouldn't believe it
The last time i wrote in it was when mattia got mad at me for calling gen sir
That's what took me so long
Because he filled me up with feelings too strong to express
Like what i said that day in the kitchen wasn't all i was feeling I held back
That's why i was crying so hard
Not because i was sad
Because I was filled with anger
Anger that I didn't want to bring out in front of him
Anger that was hard to control
So i cried and cried
Because i didn't want to make my self too vulnerable
I've made that mistake in the past and i don't want to make it again

"Lyn are you ok what were you thinking about"
Mattia said while wiping my face
Then i realized i was crying

"Oh sorry I'm fine i was just thinking about stuff"
I said while wiping my face

"Come here"
He said while pulling me into his chest
And we just looked and watch the sun set
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"Bye lyn see ya monday!"
Mattia yelled from his house

"Bye mattia!"
I yelled back

"Mwah!"
He blew a kiss to me

"Blow one back!"

"Mwah!"
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A/n:
Tune in to see what happens next time on Asshole ~Mattia Polibio
We love a gurl with a emotional Journal lmao
I have one too and my brother calls it a dairy but if they don't want me to cuss them out all the time then that's what I'm writing in anyways hope you have a good day bye luvs🌹