The Two Sides Of Love

Chapter 7

Tears

I finally stopped crying and dragged myself to the bathroom at twelve noon. I had Nicki Minaj's 'Bed of lies' and 'Grand Piano' playing repeatedly. Ironically, I was on my bed thinking of his lies.

After I saw him with that girl I went home faking illness. To me I was sick, emotionally sick anyway. I had cried all through the night and I skipped school although I had to go on Wednesday. I couldn't hide forever.

I had my bath slowly still trying to hold back tears. The songs weren't helping and I burst into tears again.

Did you ever think of me when you lie? 

I started crying again, he never did, he never cared. I was a toy amongst many others. I was his pawn, his thing, and I was used. I gave myself a mental slap for listening to him and ignoring Michael's advice. I totally forgot that Michael was always right.

Walking back to my room, I saw the bracelet on the table, I still had the pack, I put it back and turned it over,  then I saw the price tag.

$2. Cheapskate. I scoffed out loud.

I dressed up, turned off the music, turned on my phone and putting it in my pocket, I walked downstairs. I wasn't hungry but I had promised my mum that I would eat so there I was forcing toast into my mouth and flipping through the channels aimlessly.

"Aw fuck!" I said finally tired of being bored, so I stuffed the last toast into my mouth and I wore my shoes and out the door I went.

I walked aimlessly on the streets before I finally found something to do. I saw a shop for CDs and music stuff so I decided to buy Chris Brown's albulm and see what its like. I walked into the shop and found it almost immediately. I picked it and went through other CDs that I wasn't going to buy. I saw two random college guys walk towards me grinning. I quickly tried to turn away from them but it was too late.

"Hey pretty." The taller one said. "Now now we're not going to hurt you, no need to turn away." The other one smirked. "What do you want?" I asked coldly. I was pissed at all males at the moment and I wasn't in the mood to be disturbed. "We just want to meet you." The taller one said again trying to smile sincerely. "Well that's too bad, 'cause I don't want to meet you." I smiled sweetly and left to pay for the CD. Then I sashayed out of the store. After that I went to the grocery store to get junk.

I finally got home and after two chocolate bars and a pack of gummy bears, I drowned into my pillow sobbing quietly and listening to Chris Brown's soothing voice.

             '♡'

"Jo, wake up you lazy thing."

I yawned and sluggishly sat up. It was Michael. I turned the music off and checked the time. "Don't you have school?" I asked rubbing my eyes and yawning again. "Yup. Cafeteria, and I didn't see my best friend in school today so I decided to bring her some lunch. Obviously she's not eating well." He said eyeing the wrappers of the chocolates and gummy bears on the floor. Then he saw the ones on my table.

"Wait a sec. You're eating junk, playing sad music, crying in your pillow and missing school. Who broke your heart?" He asked. "I couldn't hide anything from you, really? Not even the crying?" I complained. "Nah. I read you like a comic." He grinned.

"Well before anything, pass the food." I smiled broadly holding out my hands. He gave me my lunch and sat on the couch. "You've got less than thirty minutes so make it quick." He said. "Well it's about Zach." I said

Then I told him the full story.

            '♡'

When everyone was finally home, my mum called everyone down for a family meeting. She was looking sad andweary but I couldn't guess what the problem was.

"Your grandmother is dead." She said without preamble. When nobody says anything she continued. "Grandma wanted a quiet burial, she wanted to be cremated and have her ashes thrown into the sea so we'll be doing that on Saturday and the reading of the will after church the next day.  She was a wonderful woman and we're obviously going to miss her. Just so you kneow she died naturally in her sleep. No pain involved." She said then bit her lip.

We all stood up to leave. "Joanne, stay behind." She said.     

I sat down wondering what I did. "I know you weren't sick, and you've been crying, whats wrong?" She asked and then bursting into tears I told her everything.

At the end of my pity story, my head was on my mums chest and she was stroking my hair gently then she kissed my forehead. "Its okay baby. Its going to be just fine. Anyone that wants to date you in secret doesn't want to date you at all. Now keep it in mind that you can talk to me anytime. I'm your mum and I'm always ready to listen. You're a big girl, be strong.

               '♡'

I lay on my bed reading a book. I glanced over at Jackie. She wasn't talking, she seemed to have drowned herself in the songs she was listening to and she stared blank at the ceiling. I heard a knock on my door, it was Josh. "Hey buddy, what's up?" I asked trying to be normal. "I can't sleep alone tonight so I wanted to ask you if I could sleep beside you." He said quietly.

I didnt say anything. I just put my book down and opened my hands wide enough for an embrace.

Authors Note:

Tomorrow is my birthday bishesss ! Gonna be 15 so excited sheesh. Anyways vote comment favorite and tell me what you think. Those are the best birthday gifts I could get from you guyss. thanksss for reading.

            -Timss