Submerged

~Fourteen~

Percy woke up to the bright lights that meant he was in trouble. Though it was blurry, he could make out two figures.

Will was holding a clipboard and muttering notes to himself, checking a machine that beeped ever so often.

Grover was worried sick, it didn't take an empathy link to know that. His eyebrows were furrowed together tightly and his cheeks were wet with tears.

"Percy, you scared us half to death," Will said when he realized Percy was up. "Don't ever do that again, we barely saved you,"

"You should've just let me die," I muttered, "you shouldn't keep a monster like me alive,"

"Percy," Grovers voice was quiet, he brought his eyes up to look at his best friend. "Why did you do it?"

"Because I didn't want to live. Why else would I do it? I thought I would succeed, I thought it wouldn't matter anymore. I didn't have anyone anymore, no one would miss me,"

"Percy I nearly died because I knew I would miss you. I wasn't going away any time soon, you knew you had me,"

"And how long until you left like you already had? Face it grover, everyone leaves me eventually. Everyone realizes what I am and they leave me. So why can't I leave me too?"

"Percy, I'm not going to abandon you again. None of us will. So what if Jason's a jerk? You have me, and Annabeth, and Leo, and everyone. The author of this fanfiction has a problem with killing me but they left me alive because they knew I couldn't abandon you. I could've died because you wanted to die, I was willing to,"

"But you have things to live for Grover, you haven't caused deaths like I have,"

"Haven't I?" Grover asked. "Remember Thalia? She turned into a tree because of me. Harry, he was a nature spirit I lead into battle. I'm the reason too,"

"Still. I don't need your sympathy. I could've handle it!"

"You couldn't have, Percy! You just tried to die and that is the furthest thing from 'handling it'. You could've died, Percy. I wasn't about to lose my best friend when I could've helped him! Not again,"

"I'm sorry," Percy said quietly. "I just don't want to do it anymore, I can't handle it anymore. I want to be done with it,"

"Percy, I came here to help you. Nothing you can say or do will push me away again. You're my best friend, you're stuck with me,"

"That's what you've said before. That's what Jason said. And look how it is now, I don't feel like we're best friends. Grover, face it, we're just strangers with memories,"

"No. A stranger wouldn't be able to help you at all, yet I have. Percy you are my best friend, you're stuck with me and I don't want you to do that ever again,"