Beginnings

Chapter 4.unpredictable

Bella's Pov:
"Bella!" He responds just as surprised all the boys and girls look puzzled "you two,know each other?" Says Harry "yeah.We sure do." Says Louis before I can and they all nod then Louis asks if he can pull me a side for a minute an they nod before I know what's happening I'm taken away from the group and lead up a flight of stairs to the balcony top. "What are you doing?" I say to him as I snap back to reality pulling my hand from his grasp."Bella,please let me explain." He says softly,(but all I wanna do is go as far from him as possible..but I don't at the same time!you still love him!) my subconscious reminds me harshly and I know she's not lying because when I look at him all the memories flow back and I fall in love all over "please Louis." I finally say "don't do this to me again!" For I can read his eyes he wants forgiveness in those shining blue eyes of sadness and I can feel tears welling in my eyes but he speaks softly "There's not one day that goes by,that I don't miss you where all I wish is for you to return to my arms for me to whisper all the things I love about you,Bella I've searched for you everywhere I'm just thankful we have meet again so I can-" I cut him off before he can finish and already I can feel myself melt and all that's happened in the past fade as I run to his arms which he wraps around me warmly suffocating me with his smell,the sweet smell I can never get enough of and his tattooed body which I've missed so much "I missed you too!" I tell him and I can feel his soft hand stroking my hair as his eyes soften. "I'm sorry for what I did to you,Bella,I would take it back in a heartbeat..I mean"he searches for the right words "what I've done to us-" I cut him off again by putting one finger to his lips and looking into his piercing blue eyes "I know,but it's okay," I say (well actually what you did was not okay and it never will be not ever)my subconscious reminds me and I feel the same sting and I pull away from his arms, looking from him and slowly backing away. But he stops me by grabbing my wrist and pulling me towards him and tilts my chin so I'm looking at him as his eyes search through me for the answer "what's wrong?" He whispers (nothing just that my ex wants me back after all this time and thinks he can be forgiven for what he did to me) my thoughts hurt me as my subconscious tears the wound open. "Nothing,just after all this time you could've called me,you could've apologised!I waited for you to come after me but you never did!" I shout at him as my anger builds up more and more I turn from him to walk away but yet again he pulls me back and I glance around rapidly noticing lots of eyes on us and then he says "look at me!" He shouts back but I just continuous look from his gaze and say "please Louis!Not here!" I beg him but he continues "look at me,Bella!" I finally give in and I see those eyes blue as the water with tears welling showing his regret I know before he even says anything what's gunna happen he speaks slowly making sure I listen to everything "Bella,if I could I would of but you know my parents it's just-" " it's just what" I interrupt "because I know your parents,the Louis I love wouldn't let me runaway,would contact me and be there for me!" I say yelling with tears tumbling down my cheeks.He uses his hand and wipes the tears away one by one and has wide eyes now he looks shocked he responds nervously "You love me?" I can't help it I'm so emotional I can't lie "I've always loved you and that won't change,never!" I speak clearly making every word a big deal he then begins to cry "How could I do this to you! I've always loved you yet I put you in this position..Bella I've changed so much I swore from that day onwards I would change some things about me and that I would find you an make it up to you to get the only girl I've ever loved back!" He's so emotional it only makes me cry more "it wasn't all your fault,mine too!" I blubber as I can feel my eyes turning red "I shouldn't have left you it's been one of my biggest mistakes in life,I thought you didn't need me!" "I always needed you!I love you,Bella!How could you think that?I will always love you and only you..let me prove it to you! I shall make it up to you and show you how you make me feel!" I never remembered Louis like this he was always so closed off and I remember after that day I swore I would never love again he was my first serious boyfriend I meet at 15 and we fell hard for each other and I always wanted to be with him but one day everything changed and I lost the need to want to love again and it hadn't changed I'm now 20 and everything's changed since then I don't know if I could ever go back. I'm so lost for words we just stare into each others eyes when I finally say "I love you and I always will,but-" he cuts me off "why is there always a but?" He sighs loudly "but!" I continue "I'm not ready for this!.." " not yet,anyway..." I add and I see the hope in his eyes "then I will wait for you!" He says hopeful "in the meantime I wanna show you I've changed can we be friends then?" He says slowly "sure." I say giving a small smile and we hug again and he speaks "so friends?" He says with a silly grin "friends!" I say us both laughing moving from our further cry together and we hear people clap around us. We forgot people were watching and we both look at each other and laugh together like old times...

Authors note: (hope you like this and comment and keep reading it's only starting to get good and my creative juices are flowing so I hope your prepared :) let me know if you want anything by commenting)