Beginnings

Chapter 10.where do broken hearts go?

Mikaela's POV:
I honestly don't know what to think about what happened last night.Yes, me and Zayn have forgiven each other but there's still some doubt in my heart for some unknown reason about me loving him I don't know what to think but I'm starting to like Harry but I still remain the feelings for Zayn so my heart is officially torn in half and I don't know what to do.But me and Zayn aren't even technically together although he says he wants to be with me but what happened last night kinda makes him torn between me and Bella yet he still feels stronger about us.Im just unsure about what to do because this is something I've told no one about last night and for some reason this won't leave my mind.
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Everyone was leaving from the beach and Tilly was trying to teach Bella the moves I showed her from cheerleading..I really love being the cheer captain for my team..anyway as they were trying to do my signature move (doing it terribly wrong) I was kinda caught back in laughter as both Louis and Zayn starting lifting Bella in this weird air fail which sent them in a pile and Niall went up and spun Tilly around,she was caught off guard at first and then she run after him (that was different,off for Niall he's acting really strange all of a sudden) it was cute watching them all I slowly fell behind and Harry all of a sudden snuck up on me and spun me around to face him "hey babe." He said while winking (he knew what I felt about him calling me babe..but I decided to just let it slide just this once) "hey curly." I said smiling,he then took me in this kinda head lock thing but more gentle so his mouth was right by my ear he then whispered "I love you,babe." It was so quiet I almost didn't hear it (I didn't take this too weirdly at the time though and I felt slightly tipsy so I didn't think about it properly till now and now I don't know what to think about it cause me and Harry have always had this kinda thing but I've always said that there was nothing and acted weird about him cause I was embarrassed to tell anyone about it) he then pulls away from me slightly and says in low tone "I miss you babe,we need to talk soon,okay?" "Sure thing,curly." I say not really thinking at the time he then smiles slowly and we catch up to the others..
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Mikaela's POV:
I still don't know what to do,just thinking about it sends my heart in flutters..Curlys always been there for me and we've had this special secret kind of relationship but we were too scared to tell the others because he knew Zayn really liked me and I quite liked him as well,Zayn-romantic as well but more open about it and he is confident and controlling yet makes me feel quite rebel like too always impress him but in a playful way you know. This whole suitiation is breaking my heart for both of them I need to decide who I wanna be with because I can't lead them both on forever...I need to pick either Harry or Zayn and I know exactly who to talk to Bella she judges no one and as much as I wanna talk to Tilly she will be hurt with what Harry said and I really don't wanna hurt her because we are really close but I will find a way to fix this and I definitely need Bella's help to do this cause I can't do this on my own.
Tilly's POV:
I've never felt this way before me and Harry really connected last night and I loved the feeling it feels so right and meant to be..yet is it bad,but I kinda didn't like Bella with Louis I know I said I use to like him but honestly I still really like him because we are really close and everything but that doesn't change the fact I wanna be with Harry,right? I'm quite confused because Louis somehow slightly wanders my mind when I'm with Harry and I can't lose him in my mind.Yes, I know Louis wants to be with Bella it's pretty obvious but yet maybe there's something between us. I know Louis said to keep it a secret but I don't only like him but I kinda miss our secret relationship we shared together long ago..I wonder if he remembers it? It was a long time ago but anyway that's the past.Me and Harry are the future and it's all thanks to Bella I owe that girl for that because she deserves to be happy with Louis so I'm gunna stop hopefully what I feel for him for her. I'm really liking this new addition Bella I can thank her because if it wasn't for her we would never had ever seen Harry like me like this and maybe see us as a future couple..I just hope he asks on our date tomorrow.
Harry's POV:
I don't know what the hell I'm doing I honestly feel so stupid some times like my mind is wandering and I can't keep up. Yes I am starting to like Tilly a lot and see sides of her I've never seen she's a beautiful and amazing girl who is a super talented dancer and she told me a secret that she wears a black wig and I've mead her promise to take it off and keep her naturally beautiful brown hair but she's gonna tell the others she dyed it,the story behind her wearing a wig is kinda personal and I now see more to Tilly then meets the eye and that's one of the things I love about her as well as her amazing dancing ability which takes my breath away and her sweet nice and caring nature yet her sassy side with her obnoxious comments that I really dig because she tells the truth in every word and yet then there's Mikaela the queen of sass yet so sweet and kind to all plus we have this kinda weird relationship with so many secrets and turns I can't even explain and it will always stay our thing yet I'm honestly turn between the two and then there's Bella and I know I shouldn't even be thinking about her but there's something different that attracts me to this girl I can't explain she's almost like a magnet and we get along so well.This is bad and this is what I do too I can't make my mind up and I go through all the girls it's weird they all represent something different to me but I know I love Mikaela for sure through our history and Tilly I know I feel something really strong towards her that's indescribable and it feels like a new love and Bella well she's like the break of a new dawn to be discovered. I know I need to decide and hurry after all I have a date with Tilly tomorrow and I still have to talk to Mikaela so I think I need to decide outta of the two and just forget Bella altogether because Mikaela and Tilly are what are conflicting me not Bella...I know there's gunna be tears and someone's gunna get there heart broken for sure it's just a question of who.
Zayn's POV:
What happened last night! I felt love for Bella which was so new and different for me that I just couldn't explain it but I liked it and it was so different from a relationship me and Mikaela yes it's never been proper with the label but anyone could tell we had this safe feeling that we both shared comfort in. Yet I feel torn because I know what I did to Mikaela was wrong but is it bad that I feel something stronger for Bella now yet her and Louis I can feel something there definitely and I feel jealous why does he always get all the girls? I always get the girls he never wants he went for Mikaela too when he knew I liked her way more and then he suddenly just dropped her like she was old news.I hate the way both him and Harry treats girls like they go from girl to girl and don't care about their feelings it's hurtful that's why they've always been quite close similar minds and that's why me and Niall get along better we have better morals for girls and they never let Niall get who he wants either they always swoop them up before he can have a try. Anyway I feel really bad about what I did to Mikaela but I couldn't resist Bella and now I'm torn really and I'm trying to decide quickly because I don't wanna mess with them both I'm not doing what I call a "Harry" and I don't mend to offend him because I know he means no real harm but if he probably saw it the way I always see it,it would change but for now I need to fix my problem about these two beautiful women in front of me there's Bella this ray of happiness,kindness,funny abit crazy but overall amazing girl then there's Mikaela with her sass and gutsy attitude and our history is unbreakable yet she's super sweet... I honestly don't know though and I wish I would hurry up an decide because I can't leave them in the dark and I'm not leading them both along so I need to talk to an old friend of mine he will know what to do.So I call up Liam...
Niall's POV:
Last night how can I explain it anymore then weird and strange and crazy yet super fun I liked seeing everyone go loose and let down their hair it's good for the soal. Yet I hate being the quiet one who isn't involved the boys all knew I really liked Bella but what did they do they kissed her it mad me really mad to see them both flirting with her like she's just any other girl but she's not she's special and by the time their done with her she will feel ordinary when she's not at all,she's amazing and the sooner she figures that out the better,yet there was someone else that was distracting me no body else but the one and only Tilly..god she's so beautiful and she sure doesn't know it and I wish I could tell her but she's wrapped around Harry's little finger and it made me sick because until last night he never even batted an eyelash in her direction or so I think I don't know for sure but I'm probably wrong. I mean it's so hard to not fall for someone as amazing as Tilly she's flawless,talented and super kind yet she hides it well. I can tell now Harry really likes her though and I don't wanna take that away from him. Damn I also really miss Mikaela only as a friend though I really miss what we shared as friends but after we went out we realised were weren't right for each other as anything more then friends were too different and we more get along better as friends and I think it's the way I want it to stay but I really need to talk to Mikaela an maybe make sense of all the drama last night.But all I know is I wish I was the one with Tilly and not Harry,yes Bella's great and I like her a bit but no one could ever replace Tilly.
Louis POV:
I'm sooooo happy right now I finally might be winning back my Bella I've missed her soo much and I love her so much it's growing more and more as we hang out and I really wanna ask her on a date but there's this little annoying thing it's called Zayn what does he think he's doing kissing Bella and messing with her head.Yes that's right I caught them kissing and I saw him lean in and kiss her and it made me feel sick I've liked her for so long yet no one knows and were all really close and I don't wanna ruin this but we have so much history and he comes along and thinks he can have her even though he doesn't know it still makes me sick it's taunting and tugging at my heart endlessly. I have to ask this amazing girl out before he gets the idea to take her for himself I will I promise myself silently as I hang out with her more I've noticed how mature,kind,funny,smart and what a beautiful women she's transforming into and I love witnessing her change right in front of me she's going from a teenager to an adult and it's amazing... It just is a reminder of everything I love about her because I swear every time she changes she only gets even more irresistible...
Bella's POV:
I'm really happy last night was so fun and I'm loving everyone in my group but this love thing between me and Louis and me and Zayn is really messing with my heart and head. For some reason my heart is twisted between going for Zayn and for Louis and my head just keeps pounding it through my head. I'm trying to like put a pros and cons list for each and this is what I've come up with
Louis-pros
Our history,our love,our relationship,he listens,cares,is always there for me,is super fun,we get along amazing as friends and a couple,never awkward.etc.there was a lot I just couldn't list it all in my head because it hurt
Louis cons-
The past of what happened,what If everything's changed and what if he changed.. I had to stop there because I just realised this thought hasn't crossed my mind and it scared me what if it is different and it can't be the same I couldn't do this maybe. I moved onto Zayn and the lists were kinda the same but Zayns list was kinda short.
Zayn pros-
Caring,sweet,nice to me,good relationship,easy going but then I realised we don't have any history or much knowledge of each other but then we could learn and discover so it's not such a bad thing an for cons I couldn't think of anything cause I don't know him well enough to judge.This idea made it even more unclear as much as I love Louis and always will I'm still slightly unsure and as much as I'm getting to really like Zayn. I'm just gunna try and calm my feelings for them both and try see who I move more towards and feel definite feelings for because you don't wanna get this wrong I want this to be serious and not some joke so I need to be sure...

Authors note:
(I hope you likes that it's different povs and I tried my best it's kinda just for mystery and drama..plz like and comment and tell me any ideas I may put them in the story and the next chapter will start as that morning still unsure who's pov I might start changing povs in chapters more and more characters are coming..tried something new sorry if it's not your thing next chapters continues in the morning after that's just a little glimpse at how they feel but it may change ;)