Beginnings

Chapter 5.Story of my life

Louis POV: I knew deep in my heart that it was too good to be true she would never take me back and I know why so when she said not yet I felt my heart gain a bit in hope yet it wasn't enough I liked waking up every day knowing that someone loves you forever.Bella was the thing that always kept me going I never thought I would meet someone like her yet I know deep down I don't deserve she is too good for me in more ways then I can explain and she doesn't know what she does to me.she doesn't see all guys falling for her as I can tell Zayn,Niall and Harry have the way they looked at her as we came over was expected the waiting eyes of wanting to call her yours us guys all know that look and it's a secret we share amongst ourselves I remember last night they called me up at 2:30 am telling me about this amazing girl they had meet who had moved in next door and the way they were talking about her you would think the three were gunna marry her then they finally said her name was Bella and we could all meet up tomorrow I was keen because deep down I had hoped it was her but I didn't wanna get my hopes so i slid the thought aside.Until that morning I keep thinking about the possibility and it overwhelmed my every thought but the greatest moment was walking towards them and seeing her she looked slightly different from the last time I saw her but definitely not by much when I saw her I felt my insides and face light up and I wanted to run to her and hold her forever but I couldn't and I knew it too well I didn't think she would make a big deal of my presence but she looked utterly shocked and I was caught off guard.But took that opportunity to say yes although I knew she wouldn't want to listen but I got through to her tonight which is further then I'd ever hoped and for the first night in a year I can sleep again because once she left me...my body didn't adjust to the change and in my heart I thought she may return after that terrible day but I had doubt as well more doubt then hope after a month it kicked in the fact that she was gone and I would never see her again,everyone noticed me change I didn't laugh nor smile nothing made me happy and I ate little food and had constant little sleep my parents grew worried after 3 months and tried to send me to council but I made little progress and after trying everything else with it they gave up and let me figure it out for myself I tried dating to ease the pain first of but none of the girls were Bella not even close and I tried to find hobbies but they all reminded me of her..That's when I started drinking it eased my pain and made me forget I changed for the worst when she left me everyone knows that my morals of how to treat women left and I just messed around with a few too many girls but after two weeks I got sick of it and one night while snogging a girl I had the thought to change and that's exactly what I did for her my Bella! I told myself that and that's what I did I worked at the gym ate healthy did yoga became a vegan for awhile then gave up but went organic and carried on with life happy being alone instead of the needing of someone but I will admit I did try but no one was as great as her and they never will be. So I relied more on my mates after and family although mum and dad still bicker about what happened..I just think this is the story of my life I'm not meant to be happy or sad just okay and that's I guess how I will stay just okay...but now she's back I am soooo happy I could die and now she's in my life she shall never leave again because I can't cope with that pain again my thoughts leave me as I slowly drift of to sleep recalling the happiest day of my life...The day she returned to me.

(First ever Pov in Louis perspective what did you think I hoped you like it and in the next episode bear with me cause were going back to bella's pov and carrying on from where chapter 4 finished :)please comment and like tell me your honest thoughts and please tell more people to read my book the bigger audience the better)