Can You Save Me? (Shawn Mendes Fanfiction)

Chapter 1

Shawn's POV.

16 years ago as my parents held me in their arms, the thought that their son would turn out to be a depressed teenager in high school probably never crossed their minds. They gave me an amazing life. I had a fantastic childhood. They gave me the world. It's selfish for me to be sad all the time.

I used to be the happiest person. I had so many friends. I had a passion. I liked to sing and I always thought I was pretty good at it. I started to post videos online, hoping it'd get me somewhere. It did get me somewhere. It made me the joke of the whole school. I'm bullied everyday. I'm called every name in the book. I never understood what I did to people to make them treat me the way they do.

I walk around with thoughts of suicide every single day. I search my brain for a reason to stay all the time.

"Shawn, you gotta get going!" My dad hollered up the stairs.

That's my reason.

I'm their only kid left. Aaliyah died from cancer 2 years ago. The death really took a toll on my parents. I can't imagine how hard it would be to lose both of your kids. Especially losing one to a selfish suicide. I couldn't do that to them. I have so many reasons to leave but I have one reason to stay. That one reason to stay beats every reason to leave.

I sighed getting up from the edge of my bed. Alright, time for another day of hell.
"Did you hear me, son?"
"Yeah, dad."

My parents know I'm depressed. Who wouldn't figure it out?

They tried really hard to get me help. They forced me to go to counselors because I wouldn't talk to them. I don't know what made them think that I would talk to a stranger. I couldn't even talk to my parents, how could I tell a complete stranger about my problems.

I threw on a pair of jeans, my sneakers and my favorite maroon hoodie.

"Morning, Shawn!" My mom said as I walked down the stairs.

"Morning, mom." I sat down at the table.

"I should get going." I popped a few grapes in my mouth and stood up. I grabbed my bag and hugged my mom and dad goodbye.

"Have a good day, Shawn." Mom called out.

"That won't happen." I replied shutting the door.