you know when you've tried and tried and tried, but things are still shit?
yeah that's where i am.
i've tried keeping people happy, but my best isn't good enough.
i've tried being there for people, but my comfort isn't enough.
i've tried opening up and sharing parts of myself, but my pieces aren't good enough.
i've tried giving attention & affection, but mine alone isn't good enough.
ME, alone isn't good enough.
i'm average & there's nothing exciting about me.
never will be.
i'm done trying for people's attention and affection.
i shouldn't have to feel like i have to compete for you or anything about you.
if you don't want me around or don't wanna talk, say so.
i'll more than happily just, walk away.
i can't stay giving 100% to someone(s) giving only 25-50%.
it's exhausting.
i feel unimportant & a burden at that point, like i'm not worth the effort.
which is probably true.
i'm just so tired of trying so hard, to get nowhere.
i can not do it anymore.
i'll walk away & never look back.
no matter how much i may want you around, i'll go.
i don't wanna keep hurting.
i don't wanna worry about annoying the people i wanna talk to.
i don't wanna have to have constant reassurance.
i just want peace.
i want pure love.
i want happiness.
