i'm done being a doormat.
everyone around me walking all over me and coming and going as they please.
no, i'm done.
i cannot do it anymore.
my heart and mind hurt.
they battle each other daily.
i know i shouldn't keep the ones who hurt me around but i don't want to let them go.
i need to.
this shit can't go on.
they stop talking to me and get annoyed with me.
they realize i'm nothing special.
they toss me away and replace me with someone better.
but can i blame them?
no.
i'd do the same with myself because i know i'm nothing out of the ordinary.
i don't get mad or upset.
i go numb.
i shut down.
i turn off my feelings.
i run away before i can be hurt.
i leave them alone.
i give them space.
i distance myself.
i don't want to be overbearing or clingy.
