It's just weird. I don't fully believe that you love me. If you really loved me I wouldn't be a second choice. You wouldn't have to kiss me in private because of her. We woldn't be a secret. You are a cheater! And I'm helping you cheat, and just me realizing that makes me feel so terrible. I get phisically sick just thinking of it. The fact that you are messing with me and your girlfriend is bad on your part and mine. But it's okay because "It dosn't mean anything." If it dosn't mean anything then why do it? Why paly with someones feelings like you do? It's not okay and it's not fair at all. All of this mess is just the worst thing in my life right now. I have to see you everyday and god when she is with you it's even worse. I can't look her in the eye without feeling so terrible. If she were to find out you and her both would be crushed. And I would be responsible. I like to think that what you are doing is wrong, but the I realize that I am just as guilty as you.
