R.P.W Files

Never Ending

The sky outside is filled with dark gray clouds, making the afternoon looked dull. Palm trees and the likes are swaying vigorously through the swishing lukewarm air. Leanne inhaled deeply and stopped from doing whatever she's doing to take a look through her room's window facing the calm sea surface. It is a torture for her just looking at a certain spot near the beach banks where she and Clarence always spend their time every evening, calling each other 'kengkoy' and 'kengkay.' Too many memories flooded her mind. There is the spot where the Bitches' Angels laughing non-stop over Lance's joke. She also remembered how the three of them fight over Stacey's attempt of leaving the RH because of Jave. (Stacey and Jave became in a relationship, though.) There is the spot where Azzi say her last word, how she told Stacey to watch for Lance when she's gone. It's still fresh to Leanne's mind how they all agreed to build a strong friendship between all of them by the help of Cyril, Jave's young friend he had invited once in their house party. Azzi passed away a month after that. It was a dreadful one for Zach, seeing Lance in great grievance. There is the spot where Bella, Jave's sister, announced having her fiancée. Leanne never saw Bella slapping Stacey hard in the face due to her stubbornness. But at least Zach told her so, saying it was amusing. There, in that certain spot where Leanne's happiness could be found...but now it's all gone.

It's been five years.

It's been five long years since all players of falling game took their own pathways of journey. Leanne never heard of them since the day Bitches' Angels was put into shut down because of their pride and ego. Three of them were devastated, all because of their own personal problems, it had cause great impact to their once strongest squad ever in Roller's Hub. At that moment, Leanne felt lonely, sadness creeping down inside her. She knew, deep inside her heart even though she keeps denying it, that she certainly misses them so much. September calendar hanging on her room's wall rustled as the wind blew past her window, she smiled bitterly and stands up from her wooden chair.

"I'm going to the seashore. Will be back at dinner," she called as she strode past her mother currently having a conversation with her friend through telephone call. Leanne took a deep breath and hurried outside. The sky became extremely dark, the once calm sea surface is getting wavy, but she choose not to care. Walking under the rain at the seashore seemed fantastic, she thought. As soon as she reached the huge rock she used to sat on ever since they moved here, Leanne began to have her eyes tearful. She bit her lip to stopped herself from sobbing. Again, her gaze turned five feet away from her spot, to the spot where Clarence and her used to waste their time stargazing under the dark night sky, before muttering under her shaky breath, "I wish you were still here, love,

"It's my birthday today," she continued as tears started to stream down her face, "I wish you were here. That would be a perfect gift I'll ever have," her sobs became clear as the water slapping to her feet below the rock. Trying to avoid the tears, Leanne looked up at the sky, and smiled.

"Azzi," she called, and closed her eyes as it felt hot again, "I'm sorry to disappoint you. I know you told us to watch and check for Lance once you're gone but we've lose him... I'm really sorry," she continued. Rain droplets started to pour down slowly on her bare skin, leaving wet tiny patches on her white dress. It seemed to her that Azusa was crying with her, feeling the same pain in her heart.

"Stacey, Zach.." a soft sob came out her trembling lips at the mention of her friends, "Can you two hear me? I miss you, when will I see you?" She couldn't control her emotions anymore, so she had buried her face on both of her palms. The longing sadness invades her whole system. It feels so empty without her friends beside her, comforting her. They've made a promise to never leave each other before, but where are they now? And for Clarence, he made a promise, saying he'll stay no matter what happen, but it all ended just like that. The rain started to become heavy but there's nothing can stop Leanne's emotions. She sat still on the huge rock letting out her outbursts, crying out her heart, shouting all of her pain, wishing that all of these would help ease the constant loneliness she's feeling. She misses everything starting from Bitches' Angels to the PBBS.