Through his eyes

Chapter Forty

"Why is she stood there?" I asked as I stared at the photo.

"You're not allowed in here." Sirius said.

"Why is she stood there? Why is she stood next to me?!" I said again.

"You two were very close." He said

"She left me!" I shouted at him. "She was all I had and she left me!"

"You know it wasn't her choice to leave you, y/n. You know she tried to stay, just for you." He walked towards me and grabbed the photo and smiled at it.

"No she didn't. She didn't try at all. If anything, she tried to take me down with her. She was a coward and fake and she never loved me." I said before I stormed out of the room and ran back upstairs.

"Y/n!" Sirius called up but I slammed a door to stop him from talking. I sat upstairs on a bed and thought about her. She was my aunt and she was the closest family I had, she knew everything about me, I told her everything and she did the same. We were almost inseparable, until the day came that we both knew was coming, where we would have to apart from each other and I would see her no longer. She handed me over to Sirius the day we took that photo because she knew I didn't want to stay with my father who kept me away because he was embarrassed of me. Everything I know about her, every little detail, was a lie. She never loved me, that's why she just ran off without saying goodbye and never even tried to come see me which I knew she was capable off. Part of me still always loved her, even if it was all fake, she was there, she was my partner in crime, but I knew one day we would meet again and go through it all, all over again, then at last that shall be the end.

"She escaped." I heard a voice say behind me. I quickly turned to look at them and it was Sirius again. I wanted to say something but I didn't know what. "You're just as stubborn as she was." He smiled at me. "Y/n, do not be furious because she left you, without her, you wouldn't be who you are today."

"That's the whole point, without her, my parents would be proud of me, Voldemort wouldn't be after Fred or our child and everyone would be safe." I said.

"No, y/n, without her, you wouldn't even be alive." He stared at me.

"What?"

"Bellatrix was, as you know, a killer, and of course fearless, she saved you from being killed by Voldemort. He always knew you would be the one to stand up against him as you wouldn't be afraid, and you, y/n, you was Voldemort's only fear. He feared that you'd be the one to completely wipe him out, that's why he tried to get rid of you but Bella stood in the way and told him that she'd do it herself. And yet, she didn't." He smiled at me and put his hand on my shoulder. "She did love you." He said before walking off.

"Pad foot?" I looked at him and he stopped in his track and spun around at top look at me.

"How did you know?" He begun to say.

"I pay attention." I smiled at him. "Why did she hand me over to you?"

He laughed before saying, "she knew that only I would properly know what to do with you, whether it was turning you against them or handing you back over to them, she knew I could keep you alive." He winked at me and then walked off back down stairs.

Everything seemed to fall into place, I still despised her with my whole heart, but I loved her, and I had to see her again.

I decided to go downstairs to see everyone and they were all sat at the table. I walked in and immediately they all raised their hands in the air and cheered because I was safe, Harry, Hermione, Ron and Ginny had arrived so I ran up and gave them all a great big hug. I sat down opposite Fred and he couldn't stop smiling at me for some reason and he just kept tapping my feet with his and then wrapping his legs around mine and pretending to stand on my feet. I tried so hard not to laugh with the food in my mouth.

"Y/n, deary. Dumbledore has been in touch with us and he knows you are here, he said he is willing to help you in any way." Moly smiled at me and said.

"Thank you, Molly, but I'm not sure what I'm exactly meant to do." I looked at everyone.

"Well, y/n, you're not exactly going to do anything right now, you are having a baby." Remus said.

"So, what are you going to do?" I looked at them all and they all looked down.

"We're going to be away, for a while, whilst you stay here." Sirius said.

"What?" I tried to control myself.

"We'll be away, trying to figure out Voldemort's plans and what he is trying to do and we will be trying to gather some friends." Remus said.

"No." I said.

"No?" Remus repeated very confused.

"I'm not letting you do that." I shouted at them.

"Why not?" He said.

"He'll know what your trying to do, he will hunt you down, he will torture you and then, what will he do, he will kill you." I smiled at them. "You're not doing that, not without me, let me come." I stomped at them.

"Darling, we have to." Fred said.

"What? You're going to?!" I stared at him.

"No?" He lied.

"Fred!" I shouted at him.

"We won't be long, Hermione, Ron and Harry will be staying with you. No one will get you here." Fred said.

"I don't care, they'll get you all!" I shouted at them on the verge of tears.

"They won't, love, we'll be fine." He grabbed my hand.

"Yeah, and if we're not, you still have the baby." George laughed and I stared at him. "Too soon?"

"Y/n, we're all going to be okay." Tonks smiled at me.

"I've made a poly juice potion, they'll never know it's us." Moody said as he just apparatus out of the corner of the room.

"Y/n. It's all going to be fine." Sirius said and they all stared at me.

"No." I stood up. "No I'm not letting any of you go." I walked out of the room again and I heard Fred try to chase after me but Sirius told him not to. Of course, my little Fred didn't.

"Darling!" I heard him shout up the stairs as I began walking up. "Please. It's fine. It's going to be okay." I turned around and looked at him.

"I don't want to lose you." I walked back down to him and put my head on his shoulder.

"You won't, love. That's a promise." He smiled.

"The baby," I tried to get out. I hadn't told anyone but I felt like it was time, just incase, "it's coming, I can feel it." I said.

"What? How do you know?" He grabbed the side of my face.

"I can just feel it, where it is and how it's acting." I smiled at him.

"When do you think it will come?" He smiled at me.

"Feels about a week or so." I laughed and wiped my eyes.

"I'll be back to help you, I'll be back before it comes, and if anything happens, send a letter straight away and I'll come back immediately." He giggled too.

"But..."

"We'll be okay." He smiled at me and I had to trust him.

"You bet your arse you will be because I cannot raise this baby by myself, Freddie." I laughed.

"And you won't have to." He giggled. "And if you did, you'd do a pretty alright job at it." He smiled. "I would be better though." He said as he began to run away from me knowing that I was going to prance on him, which of course I did. We both wound up fighting after that about who would be a better parent and he kept pushing me on the bed and then jumping on top of me to pin me down but I kept managing to push him off the bed. Until it was time to go. Me and Hermione waved them all off as they left and I could feel the baby waving to them too.

Soon it would be the three of us, Freddie and I, and our baby, and that was perfect to me.