Mistakes [ dreamnotfound AU ]

Chapter 5: Tomorrow

I immediately sat up, looking around my room. Same old room. No dock, so sea, no breeze and most definitely no Dream. Hah. Dream was in my dream. But this sickly feeling I couldn't shake was lingering throughout my whole body. He saw me. Maybe not in real life but he saw me. I just felt like a ghost. Probably looked like one too considering how pale and boney I am. Or at least that's what others would say. It seemed to be 9 am for me. The light crawling into my room from the slits in my blinds.

I stand up and head on over to the mirror. Same old me. Slightly worse everyday. Oh jeez. I noticed the bags under my eyes and my cheek bones poking out more than yesterday. Usually I'd be proud but now I feel this shock of fear wrap around me. Dream didn't give me a specific date when he was coming. I should ask him today. I hopped onto my computer and loaded minecraft. It's 4am for Dream so I can't text him anytime soon.

A couple hours pass when Dream texts me

Dream

Hey, are you free right now?

You

Yeah, why?

Dream

Can you vc me?

You

Yeah give me a second

I turn off my phone and lean back in my chair. My throat feels dry so I should probably get a glass of water before talking to Dream. I head on over to the kitchen. Here we are again. But I'm not going to end up like a mess as I did before. I have control now. I have Dream now. I try to disregard that last part as I go get a water bottle from my fridge. Get it and go. Easy. Closed the fridge door, and took a quick glance around. My kitchen was always the cleanest place in my apartment. It was never really touched anyways. Wasn't planning on coming here often in the first place.

I head back to my computer and get onto discord. Dream's already on so I give him a call. On the second ring he picks up.

"Hey George!"

"Hey Dream, what'd you want to talk about?"

"Oh yeah, um I'm arriving tomorrow"

WHAT. He just told me yesterday that he's going to be coming soon, not that he'd be here in- what? Less than 24 hours? I had always dreamed of this moment coming but not now. Anytime but now. I didn't realize I zoned out until dream spoke up and said,

"George? You there?"

I shook my head a little, snapping back into reality

"Yeah, I'm here. Uhm, where will you be staying? Or arriving, or-" I sigh a little and continue, "What's your plan for tomorrow then?"

"Ok George forgot to tell you but I was planning on staying with you. "

I said nothing. I guess he noticed because he then quickly added

"I could just stay at a hotel if you don't want me to stay over, like it's no big deal."

"No it's fine, you can stay over. You're not going to be here for long so might as well spend most of it together right?"

"Yeah, I guess you're right. I'll be getting a taxi to your apartment so don't worry about picking me up."

Thank god. I'm a shit driver and definitely didn't want that to be Dream's first impression of me.

"Ok then. Well see you tomorrow Dream"

"Cya"

I left the call. A large exhale leaves my body as I click the hang up button. Fuck. If he comes over he'll obviously want to eat. Goddamn it George you keep on fucking up. This entire situation is getting me stressed. Maybe more than it really should. Maybe if I write whatever I'm thinking I'll be more calm when Dream comes. Better than nothing I guess. I then open my notes app and get to typing.

Hey, me. Well I'm writing here because Dream is going to be coming over tomorrow. You and me both know that I'm going to fuck up badly and mess everything up. But when have I not? Anyways, I got to think of ways to evade eating or some shit. This is dumb as hell. I could always say that I ate before, or when he's not home, in my room or anything I could say like I'm going to get a snack and go off to the kitchen. Hopefully he won't follow me or anything. How will my runs go? Huh. I could just say I always go on walks at night. Alright hopefully all goes to plan in that sense.

Now, Dream. How am I supposed to see him after I had that dream? I don't even know entirely if I love him or not. But the way he seemed to look at me. God when he kissed me. It felt so real. It keeps on replaying in my head. My heart is racing just thinking about it. That's probably a sign. Whatever. Uh, good luck and don't fuck up future George.

Well. Guess all I can really do now is stress and prep for tomorrow. I stand up to look in the mirror. I did look a little alarming. Even for my standards. Hopefully Dream puts that aside. I really can't wait to see him. I feel so happy I might just pass out. Either that or the fact I knew I had to run in a couple hours and hadn't eaten anything after vomiting. I stumbled over to my bed until I felt myself fall onto my bed. I then woke up on the floor with the moonlight shining into my room. It was 2 am. I hadn't taken my run. Dream would be in god knows how many hours. He really didn't share much for the fact he was going to live with me for a week.

Well, better now than ever. I think as I get up to put on my coat and boots.