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Hanji's Pov __________________________________ But I knew better , I knew that even if I tried to love him as much as I did with Levi ... it wouldn't work
It was a whole in my heart that he couldn't fill
I felt shitty ... I know if I accepted Moblit's confession I could live a life where someone is in love with me and I'm Happy ... or so it would seem ...
I know it would be a lie ... all of it .. because time CANT change that i will never love moblit as a lover and if I could .. it would never amount to The love I have grown for Levi
My heart will always yern for Levi for some reason I can't help but to brighten up anytime I see him , he brings a type of warmth in my heart
"Moblit ... your a great guy but I hope you know I can't see you that way ...and even if I could my heart -"- I was hushed by moblit grabbing my hands
" its okay ... I wasn't expecting anything really ... I already knew the answer...but I still clung of to a bit of hope "- he said in a sadden tone
The air seemed thick and had a sense of awkwardness mixed with uncomfortableness mixed in it
" I knew even if you gave me a chance it wouldn't be the same, I would be making you unhappy "- he said looking away from my gaze
Why do I still yern for a man That treated me like I was nothing but a hookup ?
When I spent years loving and caring for him all for just it to go down hill cause I couldn't control my feelings
Moblit started the car and drove me home
We were in complete silence the whole way I guess it's because I couldn't get the words out to apologize for everything
When we arrived at my place, I saided goodbye and left the car....it felt bittersweet
For some reason in the moment I felt like I was saying a final goodbye to him
I got home undressed and got myself ready for bed
It's funny cause once I was in bed all I did was cry and wonder how much more can I fuck up _________ Levi's Pov _________ A drink in my hand as I'm on the couch Wondering why I can't tell hanji my feelings
Why am I so afraid of letting her in ?
I know why it's the fear of losing her.... I didn't realize it then but in the process of trying to not lose her due to my feelings I ended up doing just that
She looked so memorizing, of course, I didn't forget today was the day my life changed for the better
I can never forget how in a matter of days she made me feel happiness and comfort, she was and still is my comfort place
I love her so much
So why am I so wrong for her?
Saying she deserves better won't help, because why can't I be better for her ?
As I was zoning out I get a soft tap on my shoulder
" Levi.... I can't do this relationship anymore I'm sorry it would be best if you left but seeing you are drinking I can set up the couch for you " -Petra said
" I understand, I respect your decision, it's for the best, also don't apologize I should be the one doing that also it's fine ill find my way out - I said taking my drink and leaving
___________ Authors note ___________ Sorry for taking months to upload, I'm trying to finish the book so I can just upload it fully
