You are Going to Have a Great Time

Please, forgive me

Eddie woke up with his head pounding. He had never drank so much alcohol in his life and was convinced it would never happen again. In addition to the moral hangover, the feeling of guilt consumed him the same time he got out of bed and went to the living room in the hope of finding Buck still asleep, but the boy was no longer there and that only made Eddie's heart squeeze.

He had screwed it up in a way that even he didn't think was possible. Eddie was absolutely sure that Buck would never want to see his face again. In addition to missing out on the chance of finally declaring himself to Buck and saying how much he was in love with his friend, it was very likely that he had also lost the friendship they had and that Eddie valued it so much. And it just made him feel like a shit. He had managed to hurt Buck in every way possible. Buck, who was one of the people he loved and cared about in life after Christopher. And now Eddie really didn't know what it was going to be like from that moment on.

While feeling guilty, Eddie went to get ready to pick up Chris at Abuela's. It was Sunday and he was off duty so he would spend the rest of the day at his grandmother's house in an attempt to distract his mind a little or he would go crazy because his head was racing. Not to mention the headache from the hangover.

Before leaving the house, Eddie took an aspirin while drinking a glass of water and then sent the thirtieth message to Buck, "Please, forgive me", and being more than ignored. As he really should be, he knew that.

When he arrived at Abuela's, she was already waiting for him at the door with a huge smile on her face that soon turned into an expression of concern "Eddito, are you okay? You look awful ". Abuela put her hand on Eddie's forehead to take his temperature and see if he had a fever.
"Thanks Abuela" Eddie forced a smile as he hugged her and greeted her as he always did when he saw her. Kissing your forehead and asking for the blessing. It was a family tradition that he did not pass on with Chris, but Abuela insisted that the little one ask for her blessing whenever he saw her. "And don't worry, I'm fine. I just have a little bit of a hangover"Eddie replied, entering the house and looking for his son.

"Who were you with to have drunk that much? I bet that you were with Buck" She asked him as she led him over to Chris.

Eddie blushed at the comment immediately and hearing Buck's name made his heart squeeze a little. He was devastated by everything that happened between them and he just wanted his friend there with him at that moment so he could say everything he felt and explain to him that it was all just a misunderstanding. "He was also with me, but we were with our friends at the station to celebrate his return to 118".

His abuela seems to have noticed the sadness in his voice, because she immediately gave him a questioning look "What's wrong, nieto? You look so sad" She rubbed his shoulders in a way to comfort him with whatever was bothering him.

Eddie opened his mouth to speak, but Chris appeared at the exact moment with a huge smile on his face, "Daddy!", He went towards his father with an animation that Eddie really wanted to have. The boy looked around and his smile immediately faded, "Where's Buck?"

"He had to go home and get some things done to get back to work tomorrow morning. But as soon as I can, I ask him to come and visit us" Eddie's heart squeezed even more and he had to restrain himself from crying in front of his son and his abuela.

Damn! He was hating himself so much at that moment.

"Do you promise?", Chris asked a little sadly.

"Yes, I promise" Eddie kissed the kid on the head and ruffled his hair as he always did while forcing a miserable smile on his face.

Chris seemed satisfied with his father's promise and then went back to the couch he had come from and turned his attention to the cartoon that was playing on TV. Eddie didn't know what he was going to do when his son missed Buck for the next few days. He didn't know if his friend was going to walk away from his son either. Eddie knew that Buck loved his son as if he were his and he knew that if Buck had to walk away from the kid it would be the end for him. And with that he just felt even more like shit, because in the end it would be his fault too. He didn't really know what was going to happen and to make matters worse, Buck wasn't answering either his calls or his text messages, which just proved that the boy didn't want to know a bit about his existence.