Hope And Faith ✓

19. Hope

Author: What's the bitter truth about life that most people underrate?

Faith: That you weren't born to be perfect. You need to fuck up once in a while, lie once in a while, embarrass yourself once in a while. And even make thousands of people hate you.

The thing is, life isn't perfect and no one in it is either, so you can not judge anyone for their mistakes. I wasn't brought here with you so I certainly won't leave here with you either, but I would advise you; fuck up while you still can. Because some people aren't that privileged.

~Faith Jennings.

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Mom and Dad said more things to each other, Lacey even butted in once in a while but it remained the same to me.

Mom wanted to take me with her, she wanted to be the mother she was not permitted to be. She was trying and wanted to share moments that she normally could not with me now.

I needed to get out, I needed space, I needed to breathe.

I was free yet I felt like I was being chained down, nothing felt right anymore and my mind was in different places at once.

It had been my dream to go to Canada, there was something about it that made it seem like I had my future laid down on a golden platter, it was a good deal but then again, not all good deals are the best.

As they kept on arguing I regretted eavesdropping—instead, I focused on blaming Garrett, it was immature and stupid but if not for his poor advice I wouldn't be here.

"I want you out of my house right now, Veronica! Or I'll call the police," I heard Dad threaten and my eyes widened. I needed to get out, quick.

Before my Mom could respond I had revealed myself from my hiding spot, trembling, I was not sure if I was angry, disappointed or just flabbergasted but the look of horror on my parents and Lacey's face made me gulp.

"We didn't—" Lacey tried to say but whatever she was going to say had been cut off by my mother.

"You heard didn't you?" She was calm as if she revealed her true emotions I would break. But I knew that was not true, Mom wasn't like that.

I looked away from her hazel eyes and I heard my father sigh. "There's no need in hiding it anymore then,"

"It was never going to be hidden anyway," Mom waved him off before crossing her arms. "I only came here to tell you, you're the one that brought up terrible memories that—need I remind you— you caused. I'm only here for her opinion, you're practically no-one to me." I saw the sadness on my Dad's face, he was affected by her words but my Mom didn't care.

I didn't know the full details of what had happened between them but I knew that Dad had done more than he told me. It was evident in Mom's strong resentment towards him. And from the way, Lacey averted eyes with my Mom when she said that I knew she was involved too.

It was kind of a massive web of lies and I knew no one was going to let me in.

"What happened was in the past, Veronica, get over it. Mistakes are meant to be made," he told her.