A L T H E A | Werewolf

Chapter 23

I just want a little fix, I don't wanna take a risk
I don't like it when I drift from the safe zone
But lately, I been thinkin' I'ma have to
Lettin' go of things that I'm attached to
World don't stop just because I'm in a bad mood
You don't know what love is 'til you holdin' onto somethin' that you can't lose
I swear I'm tryna get it together
Sleeves up, puttin' work in, tryna be better
I like to rap, but I ain't gon' do it forever
Forget the charts, I've been focusing' on holdin' my head up

CHANGE - NF

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A L T H E A

"I don't know..." I answered.

It's true. I don't want what my father is trying to give me but truth be told, I don't know what I want myself.

"Okay, think right now. What do you—"

After a long pause, I answered him, "I want this..." I said slowly.

"How do you mean?" He asked.

"I just want this. The two of us. I like what we have right now... I don't know what I want for the future but just for right now, I want the two of us..."

He sighed heavily and looked up to the sky, "Me too. This, right here, feels right. I haven't felt this happy in a long time." He admitted.

I adjusted my head on his shoulder and reached for his hand but hesitated.

Maybe I'm taking this to far. He might not want me touching him like that or something.

My thoughts were interrupted by him taking my hand in his.

Maybe I'm not overthinking this...

"We should head to bed now..." he stated after a while. I agreed and we went inside.

The ice cream had melted since we spent the majority of the time out there talking and not actually eating it. I put it back in the freezer and Evan showed me to where my room is.

"I'm right next door so if you need anything, just say my name and I'll come to you. I always will..." he said.

"Goodnight Althea..." he said closing the door.

I got into bed and tried to sleep.

I lay in that bed for hours and hours and I couldn't get my eyes to rest.

"Dekára!" I whispered and got out of bed.

(Damn)

I opened my door and went towards Evander's room. I stood outside the door for a good 5 minutes before I slowly opened the door.

"Evander?" I whispered, "Are you still awake?" I asked.

No answer. I closed the door behind me and made my way to the other side of the bed.

I got in the bed and lay still, hoping I wouldn't wake him up.

I let out a squeal as his body quickly jolted up and pinned me down, his hands pinning mine above my head while he straddled me.

"Evan?! What—" I shut my mouth as I looked into his eyes. The room was dark but I could still see them.

"What are you doing Althea?" He asked.

Man I love the way he says my name...

"Uhh sleeping?" I asked, trying not to concentrate on the fact that he was straddling me and that his crotch area was just on mine.

"In my room?" He questioned.

If he doesn't move, whatever might happen next is his fault, not mine.

"Yes," I paused, "I couldn't sleep in there by myself..." I mumbled.

He let go of my hands and moved off of me. He turned on the lamp and lay in bed facing me.

I turned to face him, "What's wrong?" He asked, brushing my hair from my face. His fingers lingered on my cheek for a while before he dropped his hand back on the bed.

"I kept worrying about my mother. I didn't tell you what I saw in the water..." I explained nervously.

"It's okay, calm down," his hand found my cheek again as he rubbed gentle circles on my skin, "Tell me when you're ready..." he whispered.

"I saw my father, he'd hit my mother," I could feel him tensing and relaxing again before he urged me to go on, "He hit her and it scares me. My father loved my mother. Anyone could see it. But he still hurt her. How can I be sure that I can love someone and they can love me; what if they hurt me too?" I asked.

He was silent for a while, "You can't. You can never know but it shouldn't stop you from trying to love. I'd never hurt you Althea." He explained.

"I know you wouldn't. But you don't love me..."

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