A Poet's Fantasy

Miraculous - Goodbyes

So here's a little something I had written for a contest, #badguywins.

It was kind of a spur of the moment thing, forgive me fans if I got the details wrong! 🙏

Miraculous: Tales of Ladybug and Cat Noir Chapter name - Goodbye *written from Hawk Moth's POV*

I stood there, in the garden, hidden away from the house and away from Adrien. Only Natalie knew about it. I was looking at the coffin. She was in it. Emilie. My wife. She was still beautiful, as she was when we last laughed together. I remembered the way she would smile and greet me in the morning when I climbed down the stairs, or how she would massage my shoulders after long nights. I reached my hand out towards her. If only, if only she could be back. For that, I would need those two miraculous, something I have been working hard for. But those little brats, they always win. Not this time, I thought clenching my fists. With Natalie's help, I'm sure I can win this time, but this time I have to formulate a plan and not just rely on emotions, they can be suppressed easily. One exception was Volpina, but she has let me down repeatedly. This time, I will take help from my strongest akumas and akumatized 'victims'. 'Hold on a bit longer, Emilie, I promise I will get you', I tell her quietly. I enter the room with her painting, it stands out among the rest, and sigh. I enter my domain and say, 'Nooroo, dark wings rise!'. It's good to be Hawk Moth, I feel a step closer to my victory. I order Natalie to come in. After we have successfully formulated a plan, I go through with it. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- It's done. I've achieved it. I've finally gotten Ladybug and Cat Noir's miraculous. I sat back in awe as I stared at the Miraculous in hand. Even their true identities were revealed, they were Marin-, doesn't matter, and...Adrien...my son. I massage my head, urging myself not to think about it. Adrien and that girl must have forgotten about their secret identities by now, I had used Oblivion for that. Everyone thinks that the bad guys all want power, that's why they the powerful things in life, like money or in my case, the Miraculous. But that's not necessarily true. It's like what she used to say. 'Nothing in this world is right or wrong, it's all in the head', she would say and point to her head making silly gestures and laughing, 'it's based on experiences that people start judging and comprehending the things they see around them'. Those words are one of the things I rely on to not feel guilty and feel that she won't hate me after she comes back. But I can not be very sure of that, only hope so. I just want Emilie back, just want her to stay by my side, act like all this never happened, although I don't think that can be possible after all that's going to be done and has been done. I sigh yet again and call Natalie, making her go to the next step, before Cat Noir and Ladybug make a counter-plan. I have to calm down for now. I take out my anxiety pills, the doctor had only recently prescribed them, I had been having a lot of anxiety attacks lately, with all the work and being Hawk-Moth. Being defeated by Ladybug and Cat Noir every single time almost had me fall prey to depression. After all, the feeling of hopelessness that comes when you can't succeed at something, no matter how many times you do it, after grief, it kills you; surprisingly enough, I wasn't dead. I popped the pills in my mouth and tried to calm myself down. It was nice to be away from all that for a while, no matter how short, and not have to worry about the things. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I watched with a calm demeanour as the coffin was opened, but inside I couldn't wait for her to wake up. It was a while before she even moved and as soon as she opened her eyes, I raced to her side and held her hands with my own. 'Gabriel', she whispered with a slight smile. 'Emilie', I said back. I kissed her forehead and sobbed. Still smiling, she tried to calm me, rubbing her hand over mine. After I had calmed down, I slowly guided her through the house. We stopped at Adrien's bedroom. She hesitated in touching the handle, but I opened it for her. I knew for a fact that he would be in his bed, unconscious. She slowly went and sat by his side and smiled at him, whispering, 'Adrien...' She then got up and head over to me, and hugged me, sobbing. I pet her head and hugged her back. Pulling away, she asked, 'So, I never thought I'd say this but...what year is it?'. I smiled at her softly and told her all about what it was like now. She looked away for a while, then looked back at me, 'So much has happened... 'I nodded, then gazed at her before turning a little serious and hesitantly opened my mouth. 'What is it?', she asked, perplexed. I turned around, not wanting to face her, then...told her all about the things I had done as Hawk Moth. There was no sound. I slowly turned around to see her face, surprised and strong, maybe even a little...horrified. 'Emilie?', I asked, reaching out. 'No wait, I just need some time to think about this. This is not exactly the most pleasing thing to hear after you've woken up after a coma'. I nodded and left her in the room. I knew she would rather be alone than with me at such a time, but not completely alone so I left her with Adrien. I had seen that coming, her pushing me away, not like I don't deserve it. But seeing that on her face, right now, it still managed to hurt me. It would be very generous of her to accept me and have me back, after all, I haven't been a good person. I was Hawk Moth, akumatizing everyone and Cat Noir and Ladybug saved them. If I was no longer Hawk Moth, they wouldn't have to save anyone either. I rely on that fact to not kill myself with the guilt. But I do understand the consequences of my actions, and I'm ready to accept any punishment if it's at the cost of Emilie's happiness, to be reunited with her son. I wasn't the best father if I could even call myself that. And if Adrien could be happy, with his mother, without me, so be it. I just wish they can be happy, wherever they are, whenever it is. This is the end to the story of Hawk Moth and the begin of a new chapter in the life of Gabriel Agreste. Goodbye Nooroo, find a new master, one that possibly is not as bad as me and treats you better. Goodbye.