As Seerahtun Nabawiyyah

Early Life, Major Events

Day 5

As Seerahtun Nabawiyyah lesson 5 : Early Life and Major Events
Speaker : Ustadha Taimiyyah Zubair
Duration : 46'04"

I could relate to so many events from this lesson (well, that's something I say for every lesson 😑) But listening to this lesson, no matter how many times, brings you to tears. Imagine a kid seeing his mother die, his grandfather die and then he has to live amongst the cousins seeing them having both the parents. Its utterly painful. Isn't it enough to be traumatized for life ?! But look at the contentment of RasulAllah ﷺ, he survived all of that without being bitter with people around him, neither with himself neither for the fate ! And this is why, he is referred as the mercy for the worlds.
This lesson makes you wonder where are you standing at the path of self discovery and self discipline. How long we can patiently endure hunger, do we  make distasteful faces at the food offered ? Bitter goaurd maybe ? Can we see others happy, without feeling a little spark of restlessness inside us ? And all these things, they are so important for the basis of ikhlaq in us.  RasulAllah ﷺ was being prepared for a heavy responsibility. A responsibility of faith, of spreading the word of Allah. Look at us, don't we too have a similar responsibility? And how are we preparing ourselves for it ? Being a believer is a task of responsibility. We need to have those qualities that will help us in long run. Patience, humility, self control in hunger, in sleep, in tongue and speech. As the hadith says, every man is a shepherd,..and everyone will be questioned about their flocks. Our flocks are our time, our health, our relationships, our speech, our Ikhlaaq, our knowledge and how do we use it. Are we productive enough to not waste time in amusement and entertainment? Are we kind enough to our relatives,especially to the closer one ? This lesson again and again pushes you to ponder on these things.

I've lived a short period of my life over hostels, and few months at relatives place. And I can totally relate how it feels to have your own  home.,how it is to be yourself and not whine about the things that irritate you especially. And to be honest, its hard, its so painful. I clearly remember, the first day at hostel canteen, I couldn't eat because it didn't tasted like the food cooked by my Ummee !!! Living away from family, not being able to see them and not having that comfort of "home",continuously trying to control the littlest even things in order to adjust at an outer space,takes a onerous effort. And we do it for perhaps a little while of our lives. RasulAllah ﷺ lived all his life in that way !! And everytime I've heard this lesson, my heart has ached for our beloved, and has cried imagining a little boy herding a flock of sheep, and doing his own chores.,compromising on food, and basic necessities.
May Allah grant us all his blessed company in Jannah. I'm overwhelmed. Can't write further perhaps....but one thing, he was and is the best example for the whole mankind. And if we strive every second of  our lives without even sparing time for food and sleep, we cannot even reach the level of the dust of his feets 🥺😪😪 ﷺ ❤❤❤