Young love is found by tragedy

Jealous?

A/N: I couldn't find an image that captured what I wanted Elliot to look like. Feel free to create to create your own description of what he looks like after all that's was fanfic is all about. I hope you all enjoy this chapter!!

2 weeks later
Elliots POV
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  I'm back in school and each day I carry the death of my mother. It's been two weeks and things with the adoption situation are finally getting settled down. I've moved in with Cragen not all the way but mostly. I haven't read moms note yet. I just can bring myself to read what she wrote. Her last words it makes me sick to believe that she killed herself because of me. Me and liv have been pretty distant which is all my fault. She tried to be there for during the adoption situation but I continued to push her away because everything was just to much. I yelled at her for stupid things like when she was concerned about me and asked if I was okay, I raised my voice and "No obviously not I'm freaking parent less and now I have to go through the process of being adopted so no I'm not okay." She stayed quiet after that. Just because I'm mourning doesn't mean I get to be an ass and I know that so I don't know why I keep doing it. I'm standing in the hallway gathering my things, there's a new girl at school her name is Justina. I'd talk to her a couple times before she's super nice and I mentioned her because she's my new lab partner it's the second half of the semester so we have switched partners. I just so happened to get her, I started walking down the hall and ironically enough we bumped into each other causing her books to drop. I apologize as does she and we both pick up the books
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Olivia's POV
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  I stood at my locker watching Elliot and new girl Justine. They'd been pretty friendly to each other. I watch as Elliot helps her pick up her books and is swooning over her. Me and Elliot haven't been in a good place I don't know what I did to piss him off so bad but he doesn't even like me being around. Me and Elliot make eye contact as he talks with Justine against the lockers. He watches me and I just stand there watching what they do like a creep. I didn't know what they were talking about but I knew I was hurt and pissed. I should've knew I was merely someone Elliot needed in the moment I knew it wasn't anything more.
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Elliots POV
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  Olivia watches as me and Justine talked I wanted nothing more than to run up and apologize for my behavior but I didn't want to be rude to Justine. Liv seemed upset and I stared her down as stood across the hall. I knew she was angry and I was hoping she could forgive me not like I deserved it. Justine snapped me back to reality when she said "There's an assembly today in the gym and you're kinda the only I've really been introduced to would mind going with me? So I don't feel completely alone?" I didn't want to be an asshole but I didn't want to hurt liv's feelings and make her think this is more than what it is. I wanted to go with liv but I said "Uh you know what okay I will totally go with you." She was super happy and pulled me into a hug wrapping her arms around my back and say "Thank you I really shy so this means a lot." I hug her back and watch as liv looks heartbroken. She slapped her locker door and left with tears in her eyes. Oh what the fuck did I just do.
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At the assembly
Elliot's POV
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  Me and Justine sat in the bleachers watching as the marching band performed in the gym. I saw liv enter and we made immediate eye contact. When she saw Justine next to me her face grew sad and I really wanted her to know that this means nothing I'm just trying to be a friend to her since she's new. I love Olivia with all my and heart and there's no room for anyone else. Olivia found a seat in the bleachers by herself and I knew I needed to talk to her. I said to Justine "Hey uh I have to talk to my best friend over there real quick but I promise I'll be back and don't worry these guys don't bite everyone kinda sticks to themselves with there own friend group." She smiled and said "Okay that's cool but promise you won't leave me alone the whole time?" "Promise" I said and then made my way over to Olivia.

I sat next to her and she said nothing. She acted as if no one had sat next to her. It was quiet aside from the ruckus in the gym. I say "Olivia I'm sorry for the way I have been treating you these passed couple of weeks. I've been nothing but shitty to you after you were there for me over and over. Olivia I know this will sound like a bunch of excuses but has just been so much going in these couples months I just didn't control my anger the way I should've and I'm sorry. I'd never speak to you that way again and that's promise. You mean the world to me and I don't want to see you hurt especially by me." She looked at me staring into my eyes and said "I don't know what you want me to say Elliot. That I forgive you? Are we going to pretend what happened this morning didn't happen? Or what's happening right now isn't happening? Look who you are here with, you guys were getting along pretty well this morning." I didn't know what to say, I could hear the hurt in her voice. She continued "If that were me and Jake in the hallway earlier how would you have felt? Elliot if you only needed me for the moment you could have just said that. I would have still been there for you I didn't need to be roped in and pour my feelings out like a idiot. I said I loved you and look where we are now. You are grieving and you didn't mean any of things you said and that's fine but please do not call me again with bullshit if you're just going to use me." She stood up from the bleachers to walk away but I grabbed her arm I said "Liv please don't I didn't use you I-" she pulled away her arm and said "Don't leave her waiting too long." With that she left the gym and I was dumbfounded. I walked back over to Justine and she said "Everything okay?" I nodded my head yes and we just watched the assembly. All I could think about is how she said I used her. Why would  I use her just for the moment? Does she not remember how I begged her to not leave me and to promise to always be with me. This broke my heart. Moms gone dads gone and now the only good thing my hope was gone too.
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Olivia's POV
At home
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  I got home from school and just sat in my room heartbroken but not surprised. Those days where Elliot said he loved me and he kissed me it all seemed to good to be true. I laid in my bed thinking about him and Justine. I cursed myself for letting my feelings be so known. As I was laying down I heard a knock on the door without thinking I went down stairs and swung open the front door. It was Elliot the last person I wanted to see right now. I tried to say "El please just g-" but he cut me off by entering closing the door and saying "Olivia I didn't use you I'm not using you. My parents are dead liv they are fucking dead my emotions are all over the place. Yes it was wrong for me to put my anger on you and I'm sorry I'm so sorry but you cannot act like I never loved you and liv I helped Justine today because she asked me she's shy and she didn't want to walk alone. You don't think I'd rather had been with you? As for the hug I don't know she just hugged me and I stood there. I love you I would never just use you Olivia." I didn't say anything although I wanted to. He moved closer to me where I could feel his breath on my face. My breath hitched and he placed his lips onto mine he kisses me gently and says "please liv" I lean my back against the front door and he kissed me again. He pulls away and looks me in the eyes and says "Olivia the last thing I want to do is push you away. You and Cragen are the only people I have left. I need you." When he was speaking I just couldn't believe what he was saying I couldn't believe he truly meant what he said. I pushed him off me not aggressively but just so there would be space between us. I say "Elliot you don't need me. You needed me. You should go home adjust to your new home and after you are done grieving the loss of both your parents which is a huge deal and I'm so sorry about it but when you are done grieving you can decide if I'm still what you want." He intervened and said "Liv I know I want you now please don't do this." I say "No you don't Elliot you don't know because you are hurting you couldn't possibly know what you want so please go." He looked at me with anger a tear ran down his cheek and he said "So you're breaking up with me?" He clenched his jaw and I said "We were never together." As much as it hurt me to say that it was true he needed me for the moment he needed someone to lean on and I was happy to that person. I knew what I said had broke him but I had to say it. He looked at me and walked closer he stood in-front of me and placed his lips gently against mine I let him because I knew what this was. It was our last kiss before we didn't see each other anymore. He whispered into my lips "bye." I whispered back into his and said "bye." He walked out the door and I stood there heartbroken but I knew it was for the better.