*same day after school*
Olivia's POV
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I sat on my bed working on some math homework when I got a text from Elliot. I didn't want to talk beyond the project. I opened my phone and the text said:
El: "Hey, this is the song maybe you can give it a listen tonight?"
Liv: "ok I will."
I set my phone back down expecting the conversation to be done but my phone buzzed again. I picked it up and the message said;
El: "This song is for you. I know you don't want to hear me out or hear the basic crap you've been hearing already but I do love you and if you're willing to hear me out I can explain everything. This song describes what you are to me and how in the future I couldn't be apart from you. There would always be a ache in my heart,something missing from me."
I didn't know what to say or how to respond, was I just supposed say okay I forgive let's be together again? No that isn't fair as much as I love him I cannot be treated like crap one day and loved the next. I texted back:
Liv: "El you cannot do this, you cannot swoon me with all these word and tell me you love and that you need me. You broke up with me because you couldn't handle me caring. You made your choice so now I have to make mine."
El typing...
El: "Olivia I am sorry and I didn't mean a word I said. I was going through something and I felt like absolute crap. I hadn't showered in three days, I barely got out bed to help myself. Liv don't you think that I know I don't deserve you but I need you."
Liv typing...
Liv: Elliot no this is not about you not deserving me this is about you speaking to me. You cannot just treat me like garbage just because that's how you feel in the moment. I'm supposed to be your girlfriend who you can talk to but you don't want to talk to me.
El typing...
El: Olivia it was the one month anniversary of my mothers death.
El: I know that's not an excuse to treat you the way I did. I was feeling like I couldn't breath and I just needed an escape from the world. I felt suffocated and I needed to be alone. I never meant to hurt you but I did and yes now I'm going to fight to get you back because you are the only good thing left for me. The only amazing thing left for me.
I felt really hurt and sad now that Elliot had told me it was the anniversary of his mothers death. I should've knew and I understand that I might've me crowding him making him feel suffocated but I was only trying to help.
Liv: I'm sorry I didn't know. I should've known. I was only trying to be there for you I didn't mean to make you feel trapped or suffocated. Elliot we are never going to work if you don't tell me how you feel. If you don't open up to me.
El: No you shouldn't have known, my baggage doesn't have to be yours too. I know you weren't trying to cloud me you were just being the amazing person you are. I'll say it again and again until you're mine, I'm sorry. I promised you this wouldn't happen again and I broke that promise but liv I don't just want you I need you. I don't care about how long it will take for you to forgive me as long as you do.
Liv: Elliot your baggage is mine too because we're best friends. When I needed someone you were there. Why can't I be that for you? As much as I want us fix I'm not ready to just move on. I hope u understand. :(
El: I understand. What does this mean for us?
Liv: It means...we are still not together. It means maybe we should take a break from each other, talk some new people and if this can be fixed we will make our way back to each other. I don't want to suffocate you anymore than I already have so we just need a break.
A tear rolled down my face as I sent the text. I said that because I didn't want us to rush back into things and just argue again, maybe we just need space and then we will be okay. I wanted him right now laying next to me holding me but I knew that wouldn't' for a long time.
El: You aren't suffocating me liv you aren't but fine if this is what you think we need then okay and I would never go out and talk to someone else. I know who I love and who I want to be with. I'm sorry I hurt you again, Goodnight ILY
Liv: Goodnight Elliot ILY2.
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Olivia's POV
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I laid in bed quietly sobbing, wondering why things had to be so complicated. I just wanted to love him and I wanted him to love me. I guess we just aren't ready for that. I put in my headphones and click play on the song he sent. The song played and I sobbed. It was about having a hole in your heart that is slowly killing you. Love had failed us. We were the hole in each other's hearts.
A/N: I wasn't sure if I could use the song in my fanfic with out being copyrighted but I hope you all enjoyed this chapter. I know this one is a bit short but there will be new parts out soon. Remember Vote,Comment,Share!!!
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