sacrifices

PART 13

Hey guys...haha. Sorry. I've been going through a break up😅 I feel really bad. Anyways I'm trying to find motivation right now. This chapter will probably be short I apologize.
Recap: you pulled a little prank on Spencer when you brought BDSM handcuffs to his work. He went through a PTSD episode and you helped him through. He stayed at your place. This takes place and couple weeks after.

Y/N POV

it's been a few weeks since Spencer's episode. I feel so deeply bad for him. The morning after he got called away on a case and we haven't really talked since. I missed him.

With him being gone I was consumed with my thoughts. Every singular thought I had always lead back to Spencer. I was falling so hard for him and I was terrified to say the least. He probably didn't even feel the same way about me.

Right now I am on my way to the mall. I am in need of a new wardrobe. I am fighting with myself I'm texting Spencer. I honestly just want to talk to him but maybe I could mask that by just asking how he is doing? I'm not sure.

Walking into the mall I decided to buy some lingerie. I don't buy it for men, I buy it for myself. It always makes me feel more confident even if I just wear it under regular clothes. It's like my little secret no one knows about.

After that I buy new shoes and some jewelry. Along with new jeans,shirts, and some dresses. I wanted to start dressing up. I haven't been feeling the most confident lately.

After a couple hours and a lot of money down the drain later I decide to get some food. I am eager to get home so I can snuggle up in my cozy bed and watch movies.

Hauling up all of my bags up the stairs of my apartment building I finally get to my floor. Though, I drop some bags and scold myself. I'm so clumsy. I hear the jingle of keys and look up. Spencer was exiting his apartment. I wonder when he got home.

He noticed me in my dilemma and rushes over to help. Unfortunately for me my lingerie sets fell out of my bags. I quickly try to snatch it away but Spencer is too quick.

"Buying these for me y/n?" He says with a smirk. God damn he was fucking hot.

"You wish pretty boy" I say snatching it away from his grasp and put it back into the bag. He just chuckled slightly and finished helping me.

"Thanks Spence" I say while we both stand up. I hadn't realized how awkward the tension was. "No problem" he says quietly giving me a tight lipped smile.

We just stare at each other our thoughts consuming us. "Were you heading out?" I say trying to make conversation.

"Yes actually, I'm going out with my team for a few drinks" he says. His eyes light up at the mention of his team. I smile big at his happiness.

"Fun!" I say a bit to enthusiastically. Oh my god I'm so fucking awkward. He just stared at me. "Indeed. Maybe next time you can come actually?" I says nervously scratching his neck.

"I'd love that" I say smiling huge. "Well I'll let you be on your way then" I say giving a little sigh. I wish we could spend time together. "Bye y/n it was nice seeing you. Maybe we can talk later?" He says hopefully. "I'd like that very much Spencer" I say quietly. He gives me a nod and walks off.

I rush into my apartment quickly setting my bags down I let a huge sigh escape my mouth. I'm really annoyed with myself. I'm so awkward. And he saw my lingerie. Fucking embarrassing.

I look at my watch and see it's 9pm. I decide to put my new clothes away and head for a shower. I was sweaty. Trying on clothes is hard work!

I wash my hair and shave quickly eager to hop into my bed. I dry myself off and put my pjs on. Just as I lay my head on my pillow I get a phone call. Really?!

Spencer was calling. Weird. I thought he was with his team. I pick up. "Hello Dr.Reid. To what I owe this pleasure?" I say through the phone.

"Heyyyy y/n what's up munchkin?!" He says screaming in the phone. He was so drunk oh my god. And he called me munchkin? The fuck. "Hi Spence. You ok" I say worried. He hardly drinks and he is his plastered.

"Oh ya. I'm completely fine!" He says. Suddenly I hear someone arguing and a new voice comes over the phone.

"Hey y/n. It's Emily from the BAU" she says slurring her words. I wonder what the hell is going on. "Spencer is refusing to leave..could you possibly come get him? Everyone else left and I'm too drunk to drive." She says hopefully.

"Ya of course! I send me the location" I say. Honestly I am a bit annoyed. I was just getting comfortable. I masked it over though. "Perfect! Thanks so much!!" She says also screaming. God everyone is so loud.

I hang up and put my coat on and grab my keys heading to the bar to pick up Spencer's drunk ass. I pull into the parking lot and head inside. I instantly see Spencer waltzing around. I come up to him and suddenly a girl starts hitting on him.

"No no noooo! I have a girlfriend" Spencer says exaggerating his words. Ouch. That kind of hurt. I didn't know he was seeing someone. I push the song of hurt down and head to him.

"Seeee!! This is my beautiful girlfriend!" He says grabbing me tightly practically putting my in a head lock. "Isn't she just gorgeous?!" He says adoring me. I can't help but smile huge. I grin from ear to ear. The girl looks at me and rolls her eyes and walks away. "Let's get you home" I say to him grabbing his hand.

"I told them I wouldn't leave unless you got me y/n! I missed you sooo much. You're so pretty." He says gushing at me. How could I still be annoyed? God he is fucking adorable. "All these girls keep trying to sleep with me and I tell everyone of them I have a girlfriend! They just won't leave me alone!" He says throwing his hands up.

I can't help but wonder why he keeps calling me his girlfriend. I loved how it sounded. I decide I will forget it for now and bring it up tomorrow when he is sober.

"Alright Spence let's get in the car" I say opening the door for him. He puts his foot down and crosses his arms. "I'm supposed to open the door for you!" He says with a frown. I just laugh. He is so cute.

"Ok ok!" I say laughing. I close the door. He smiles huge and walks over to open the door for me. "For you my lovely lady. Your carriage awaits" he says in a British accent. I just chuckle and shake my head. He runs to the other side of the car and hops in. I start to drive back to our apartment.

I suddenly feel his eyes on me. I look over and he has his hands under his chin staring at me. "What?" I say laughing at how drunk he was. "You're just so beautiful y/n" he says quietly.

I blush a dark shade of pink and smile huge. "Thank you doctor Reid. You don't look too bad yourself" I say keeping my eyes on the road.

He laughs loudly. "What?" I say still smiling. His laugh was so cute. "I love when you call me doctor. It makes my pp hard" he says. I suddenly burst out into laughter at the words choice he used for his dick. He keeps staring at me.

Finally we pull into the lot and I drag Spencer out of the car and up into his apartment. I open the door and lead him to his bedroom. He starts to take his clothes off only leaving his boxers. I let my eyes wonder to his dick and smirk. "Why are you naked Spencer?" I say smiling.

"I like to sleep like this!" He says defensively. I lay him into his bed laughing quietly shaking my head. "Ok. Goodnight Spence" I say making my way out.

"Wait!!" Spencer yells. I stop and turn around. "Stay with me? I never have nightmares when you're sleeping with me" he says with puppy dog eyes. I smile and head back to him bedroom. "Of course Spencer" I say. I crawl into his bed and he immediately engulfs me into a tight hug. He doesn't let go.

I loved this feeling. "Goodnight my beautiful girl" he says as he nuzzled his head into the crook of his neck. My hearts aches at the words he says. He called me his. I love this feeling. "Goodnight sweet boy" I say giving him a kiss on his head.

I fell asleep with a smile on my face that night. I've never been so happy in my life. I'm just sad to see if Spencer will change when he is sober and regret everything he has said.

AUTHORS NOTE:
I'm so sorry for not updating guys. Thanks fir the support and reads. ❤️