sacrifices

PART 16

Y/N POV

waking up I noticed a huge man laying on me that was non other than Spencer Reid. I twisted my body around slowly trying not to wake him. I took in his appearance and the sun cascaded on his features.

He still had scruff, but it looked hot. His eye bags seemingly less dark. I was happy about that. Although his face was still puffy and his under eyes raw from crying. I love him. I have to admit to myself. I love Spencer Reid for everything he is.

After staring at Spencer for a bit longer I looked at my watch. It was 6:30, he has work soon, but he will not be going if I can help it. With that I got up careful to not wake him and got dressed.

Since I was about to go to the BAU again, I decided maybe a less suductive approach. I just needed to talk to his boss. So, I put on tight fitting black slacks and a baby blue turtle neck, it was starting to get chilly out. I just left my hair straight and in a middle part with light makeup. I pulled on my booties and grabbed my purse and keys. I poked my head into my room again to make sure Spencer was still asleep, he was.

Quickly but quietly I left my apartment and headed to my car to make my journey to the BAU.

Pulling into the big building I hopped out of my car and got a visitors pass from the receptionist. I took a deep breath while I waited in the elevator. I was nervous considering the super immature way I came last time. How embarrassing. I cringed.

Finally the elevator chimed and I walked through the glass doors of the BAU floor. Heads quickly turned towards me. They all seemed worried. I looked down at my watch and realized they were probably worried about Spencer.

I rushed over to the group. "Don't call Spencer" I said quietly. I noticed Derek had his contact pulled up. They all scrunched their eyebrows up and turned their heads waiting for an explanation. "Not now, where your boss?" I said rushing. I hated this.

Emily pointed towards Hitches office and I scurried off thanking them. I walked up the steps and knocked on the door. "Come in" a serious sounding man said. I took a deep breath in and out and walked through the doors.

"Hi, I'm uh-" I trailed off not knowing how to describe mine and Spencer's relationship. "I'm in- Spencer's friend" I said finally spitting it out.

The man lifted an eye brows and set a file down that he was holding. "Is everything ok?" He said. Worry obvious in his voice. I quickly rushed to the door to close it and sat down on the chair opposite of his desk.

"Have you talked to Jennifer?" I asked. Hoping that was my best bet to explain what was happening. How was I supposed to explain to him that his employee is suicidal and going off the rails into a dark hole.

"No?" He questioned. He quickly dialed a number on his phone and called Jennifer into his office. I waited nervously. I know we hated each other but right now we had to put this past us and help the person we all love. I would never admit it to anyone though that I too, loved him.

Jennifer walked into the office with a smile that soon turned into shock when she saw me then her face turned into a glare. "Sit down and explain to me what's happening" Aaron said sternly. I sat anxiously looking at Jennifer. She too seemed worried now because I was here and not Spencer.

"Umm..Jennifer I know we aren't on good terms but we need to put this past us and help Spencer. Can you please explain what happened last night on your part of the story and I'll explain my part?" I said with pleading eyes. I couldn't do this alone. She agreed with me and took a deep breath in.

"Hotch, our last case, when Spencer and I were um. Held hostage" Jennifer began to say. I shot up quickly. He was held hostage? "When I had to tell me deepest secret you know?" She trailed off. She started to pick at her finger nails.

"Yes, go on" Aaron said with a questionable face. "Well uh, I told Spencer that I've always loved him..."she finally spit out and slumped in her chair looking away. Aaron took a deep breath in and out.

"He asked me to come over last night to talk about it and I agreed. So we started with a civil conversation and Spencer uh" she cleared her throat. "He started yelling and throwing books and pushed his bookshelf over, then y/n walked in" she said letting out a huge breath. She looked at me to indicate that she was done with her side of the story.

I told Aaron my side, including the drugs and every little detail. I looked at to see his face and his jaw was open in complete shock. "Oh my god.." he said breathlessly. "Where is he?" He fixed his mouth asking me eagerly.

" he's fine. I left early this morning to inform you what happened and to ask if he could have a couple days" I explained. He vigorously nodded his head muttering of course.

I looked over at Jennifer and her eyes were watery. I cleared my throat trying to push down the tears that tried to escape my own eyes. "If you don't mind, I'm going to go now and make sure Spencer is fine" they both nodded. "Please take care of him y/n" Jennifer looked at me. I nodded and left his office.

I returned home about 15 minutes later to Spencer not in my bed. I ran around trying to find him. I decided to go to his apartment to see if he was there. I knocked expectantly. He opened the door and let me in. Confusion on his face silently asking where I was.

"Where did you go?" He asked. He was putting a tie on. "I'm sorry y/n I'm going to get my ass handed to me by Hotch if I don't go to work now" he said frantically running around. I just stood there.

"You're not going to work" I said sternly looking up at him to reach his eyes. He turned his head slightly confused. "I went to your work..um. You're expected to have a couple personal days" I said to him. I was a little afraid that he would be mad at me for doing such a thing.

he looked confused at first, then took out his cell. He dialed some numbers and brought it to his ears eyeing me. "Hi Hotch" he said confusion spreading over his face while Hotch spoke on the other end. Then shock took over his face. "She what?" He said loudly.

I ducked my head down. "No I can work!" Spencer said angrily. I heard the dial click. Hotch hung up on him. I slowly lifted my head to see Spencer digging his palms into his eyes stressfully.

To my surprise Spencer looked at me with thankfulness. "Thank you y/n" he said. I plastered on a smile thankful he wasn't upset. "You need more sleep" I said to him. He nodded tiredly.