Jeon Jungkook Imagines

Not Just Sad

This one is kind of triggering. It doesn't has violence or anything. Just some random sad story I would call it. 

Also its a shorter than my usual chapters so I hope its not that bad.

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Is it a little crazy to be thinking about one person the whole time. Like..'What will he be doing right now?' or 'Is he ok? He didn't call today.' or 'What will he do in this situation if it was him.'  

I have been having these thoughts for the past 6 months. Well its usually about every person I am in contact with but that one guy never leaves my mind. Its like I want him to be beside me but at the same time I don't want him to see me ugly crying because I missed him so much.

My boyfriend Jungkook. He is seriously one of a kind. I love that man more than anyone I have ever loved. Being born without parents doesn't makes it that hard. Did I say I am suicidal. Have tried it twice but i guess god hates me more than myself, or maybe he doesn't has the right excuses to make when I'll ask him about my life.

Jungkook is the only person who ever made me feel like I am worth something. Somehow all my insecurities and hatred for myself vanishes when I am with him. Then there is his band. All of them and their songs make me feel so happy to be alive in a human form. Never once I regretted to be an ARMY. 

I got to know them on 16th July 2013. I was just scrolling through YouTube and No More Dream was in my recommendation. I watched it and loved the lyrics and beats. I don't even know when exactly did I started fangirling for Jimin's abs. But I for sure did. This fangirling is one of the thing that pisses Jungkook off. He says that he isn't but I am pretty sure he gets jealous.

"Baby.. You know I am a member of that group too right?"

"I know."

"THEN FANGIRL ON ME ONLY."

"ITS NOT MY FAULT THAT MY BIAS CHANGES EVERY HOUR."

"YOU LOSE WOMAN." He said making me burst out in laughter seeing his cute pout at the end.

That was just yesterday. I am already trying to keep my hands off the phone to not call him. But I can't help it. I miss him so much.

"Just a text wouldn't hurt." It can hurt if its the 5th in an hour.

"No. NO. I am not doing it. He will think I am being clingy. Or maybe he thinks its caring.."

I threw my phone on the couch near my bed and grabbed the remote. Never mind, I'll just watch something and take my mind off.

Jungkook's POV

What the hell..

The last text she sent is seriously 'have you eaten'. No take care or I love you. Is she depressed.. 

"JEON JUNGKOOK."

"What What why?" I looked at the person who shouted in my face. The vocal coach.

I am recently working on a song for my mixtape. Its a little hard to focus without my girl asking me how I am doing. She didn't even come for lunch today. I ate with the members. It was nice but Y/n wasn't there..

"Hyung How long do we have to listen to it? I think its good enough."

"You just want to go home again don't you?"

"No.. I want to go to Y/n's house. Its far away so pleaseee let me goo."

"Just tell me if we need to add echo to this or just drumming." I sighed and got back to work.