Not alone anymore

Chapter 55

I walk into our bedroom and Regina leads me over to our bed. We sit down and she holds my hand. She speaks in a soft voice as she says.  "My love. Zelena told me what went on during the ride home".   "Ok. Are you angry with me?"  "No my love I understand why you said what you did".   "Ok thank you. So now what?"   "Now you and Zelena should try to work this out my love. I know everything that happened hurt you and that's mostly my fault because I freaked out before I knew the real story".  I cut her off from speaking anymore.  "No babe. It's not mostly your fault. Zelena called you and boom I'm automatically the bad guy in this, and that's what pisses me off. I never moved from that front door but she calls you and all of a sudden our marriage is on the line. What right did she have to accuse me like that?"  "Emma I already said I was sorry. What more do you need?"  Zelena is standing at our bedroom door.  I stand up quickly and Regina is right behind me. "Your apology was a piece of shit. The way you apologized was like saying I'm sorry for spilling coffee. It felt like you were just trying to keep the peace. You said nothing to make it better.  Do you really want to break Regina and I up?"   "You son of a bitch. How could you".   "Ok you two. I think it's time you both go to neutral corners for now. Emma go splash some water on your face and Zelena please go to your room".  Zelena tried to protest but Regina gave her the evil eye and Zelena let go of wherever the hell she wanted to say. I came out of the bathroom and Regina was waiting for me. "My love please come sit with me".  I nod and sit next to her on our bed. "Could you please tell me what it'll take for you to forgive Zelena".  I let out a big sigh. "Regina she has to understand that she almost cost me my life".   "Emma she wasn't trying to kill you. It was just a very bad misunderstanding". I stand up and laugh. "A very bad misunderstanding? Maybe you don't get it either. I've already told you that I had no one and nothing before Granny took me in. Then by some incredible miracle we ended up together. Your mother tried to break us but somehow we worked it out because we love each other, but this thing with your sister almost really broke us Regina. You had my bags packed. You tossed me out on the street. I couldn't stay here with my wife and son. How can I just forgive that with a simple I'm sorry?"   "Emma I didn't know that this was how you felt about what happened. Why didn't you tell me?"   I sit back on the bed and just look at the floor. "Regina all of that isn't an easy thing to admit. I don't like thinking about what my life was like before Granny, Ruby and you and of course now we have Lucas, but in that moment that you wanted me to leave I was all alone again just like I was when I was a kid". She wraps her arms around me and hold me tight. She kisses my lips and says. "I'm so sorry my love. We can fix this. Can I please go explain things to Zelena so she can understand how this makes you feel?"   I shrug my shoulders and say. "Regina I don't care. Go tell your sister whatever you want. I don't care. She's probably not going to understand anyway. She'll never know what's it's like to live the way I had to and know that's why I'm always scared that it'll all be taken away from me at any moment".  I just feel drained right now and all I want to do is just lay in bed for a long time and not have to deal with anything. "Emma, is that how you really feel all the time?"  I stand up and go get something to sleep in. "Babe I'm really drained right now, can we talk about this later?  I just want to change and get to bed".  She has no expression on her face so I go into the bathroom and change and then brush my teeth. When I walk out of the bathroom Regina is still in our room. "I'm gonna go to bed now babe. I hope you don't mind".  "No my love that's fine". She kisses me then I get into bed. She walks over and kisses me again. "I love you so much Emma. Sweet dreams my love".  "I love you too babe. Goodnight".  I closed my eyes and I hear Regina walk out of the room. When I hear the door close I open my eyes and the bedroom lights are off. I am feeling tired because of what I had to drink tonight so I just close my eyes and try to get some sleep.
I wake up a few hours later when I feel my wife getting in bed with me so I wrap my arms around her and kiss her cheek. "Everything ok babe?"  "Yes my love".  "How is Lucas?"  "He's sleeping like the angel he is sweetheart. There is nothing to worry about so let's get some sleep ok?"   "Absolutely babe".  We kiss each other's lips and I quickly fall back asleep.
When I wake up the next morning my wife isn't next to me in bed. Our son must have woken up and I didn't hear him. I get out of bed and use the bathroom and brush my teeth, then I put on some sweatpants and a t-shirt and find my family. I go downstairs and walk into the kitchen and see my beautiful wife and handsome son and, oh right Zelena is still here. I walk in and say good morning to everyone. I walk over to the stove and give my wife a kiss then I go take my son out of his highchair. He's such a happy baby, especially in the morning. "Hey there kid. How ya doing this morning, did you sleep well last night?"  I ask as I tickle his belly and kiss his head. I swear there is nothing better than a baby's laugh. I smile every time. "That's my boy".  I kiss him again and he snuggled into my chest. I love holding him. "Good morning Emma. I hope you slept well last night".  Zelena asks as she gives me a hopeful look. "It wasn't so bad Zelena. Thanks for asking".  Regina really must have talked to her about everything I said last night. Great, so now we'll have to talk about it eventually. After we ate breakfast, Zelena took Lucas into the living room while I helped Regina clean up the kitchen. After cleaning Regina and I went into the living room where we found Zelena playing with Lucas while he was sitting in his truck walker. My wife and I stood there and watched as Zelena was pushing the buttons on the walker and it was a very cute interaction between the two of them. Regina and I sat on the couch and Lucas giggled as he looked at us, which made Zelena look over. It was nice watching them play for a little while. "So my love you still have to work this afternoon right?"  "Yes I do. Why you asking?"   "No special reason dear. Zelena and I were talking earlier about going to the mall later with Lucas. Is there anything you need or want at the mall that I can get for you?"  "Nothing that I can think of, but thanks".  "Your welcome dear. I think I'll take Lucas upstairs now and get him all washed up and dressed so I can get myself ready after".  Regina picks up our son and I smile as they walk out of the room. Zelena stands up and sits in the chair across from me.  "Can we talk Emma please?"  She asks in a soft voice. I knew it was coming.  "Sure Zelena. Go ahead".   "You were definitely right Emma. My apology was a piece of shit. I couldn't understand why you couldn't just forgive me and move on but I think I can understand now. After talking to Regina last night, she really helped me to see your point of view on all of this and I'm sorry will never be enough for the way I made you feel. Sure Regina and I didn't have the best mother but we never needed for anything. We always had our father that loved us and even though I knew you grew up with no family I couldn't see what I did may have cost you the one you finally have and I am so so sorry for that. You don't have to forgive me now or ever if you feel you can't but I just hope you believe me when I say that I am truly sorry and I will never do anything like that again".  She starts to become emotional and begins to cry. In not heartless so I get up and kneel down beside her. I give her a hug then I lean back a bit and say. "Thank you Zelena. I  believe everything you just said to me and thank you for understanding now. I can forgive you but please just don't do anything like that again. I love the life that your sister and I have made. I love the son that her and I have together. I love my life Zelena and I will do anything I can everyday to make sure Regina and our son feel loved and happy because if I lose them I have nothing".   "I promise Emma. You and my sister belong together and I'll trust you from now on".  "Ok thanks. So this is over now right?"  "Oh god I hope so". We both chuckle a bit, hug once more then I get up and go sit back on the couch. After all the serious talk was over, Zelena and I just talked about Lucas and more about what's been going on in our lives since we've seen each other last. Not long after Regina comes back downstairs with Lucas and they are both dressed. "Well I guess it's my turn to go get ready now. Thanks for the talk Emma".  I just smile at Zelena and then Regina says. "Zelena please don't take all day to get ready".  "I promise sis that I will only take as long as absolutely necessary to become my gorgeous self".  "Oh no please Zelena. Remember you are in Storybrooke not over in London you don't have to look like you are walking down a red carpet".  "I make no promises Regina. I'll see ya soon".  Regina shakes her head and walks over to me with Lucas in her arms. When she sits down on the couch he reaches out for me and I take him in my arms. I love him. "So you and Zelena talked?"   "Yes. I can believe her now and I can slowly accept her apology. She seemed really genuine when she spoke. Definitely not Zelena like".  I say with a little laugh. "Zelena tries to brush things off a lot but to hear everything she said, I do believe she understands now".   "That's so wonderful my love". She says then gives me a kiss. The 3 of us sit there for about a half hour then I need to go get ready for work. I give my son a kiss and hug. "I love you little man. Be a good boy for mommy today ok?"  He gives me a big smile and giggle. Regina and I laugh. I kiss him again and hand him over to Regina. I give her a kiss and head upstairs to shower and get dressed.
My shift started at noon and now is 12:30 at night. I was only supposed to work till 8 o'clock but it was so busy tonight that we needed everyone to stay if they could. I'm totally exhausted as I walk through the front door of my home. Just about all the lights are out in the house except for the foyer light and I can see some light from the living room. I take off my jacket and hang it up, I take off my shoes and leave them by the coat rack. I walk up the foyer stairs and into the living room. I smile as I see my wife sitting on the couch sleeping. The tv is on and all the lights are off. The only light is from the tv. I gently sit on the couch next to Regina and she wakes up a bit. "My love is that you?"  "Yeah babe I'm home. I'm sorry I'm late. We were so busy tonight". She turns and lays her head on my shoulder and wraps an arm around me.   "Are you hungry my love?"  "No not really".  "Would you like me to make you something?"   "No babe I'm ok. I really just want to shower and go to bed".  With her head on my shoulder she just nods. "You wanna go up to bed sweetheart?"   "Yes my love please". I kiss her forehead and we both get up. I shut the tv off and we walk out to the foyer. I looked to make sure the door is locked and we start walking up the stairs to our bedroom. I shut off the foyer light and close our bedroom door. Regina gets into bed and I grab some clothes and go take a quick shower. Once I'm done and dressed in some shorts and a t-shirt I get into bed and snuggle with my wife.