Still In The Dark | BILLIE EILISH

part 40

(Trig's Pov)

The welcome party was great. I missed Claudia a lot, her and I are really close.

I absolutely hate that Dylan guy, sure I don't even know him but he gives a bad vibe. Who the fuck he think he is gripping onto Billie's arm like that and thinking I wouldn't notice? I was literally brought up in a fucking mafia and we are trained to spot anything that seems off. Bitch probably doesn't even know about what happened to Billie or who I am. I find that fucking funny.

Yes I did say that Billie and I would remain as friends and trust me, I hate myself for it too. But it's for the best. I need to work on myself and so does Billie and if she wants to stay with Dylan then she can, it's not my place to judge her especially when I was the one who ended things. But that doesn't mean I like him.

Ever since Arshtar my mental health has gone to shit. I've stopped taking my medication for my PTSD and i've got depression, how fun. I feel worthless, like my life has no meaning. All I do is fuck up, I've literally killed people. Sure I didn't care before or when I was in the moment of doing it but the after effects are fucking disgusting.

My thoughts were cut off when I got a phone call from Finneas.

"hello?" i said

"Trig are you free?"

"yeah why?" i asked

"it's Billie, she's ran out and won't talk to no one, she's in the park that's like 10 minutes away she won't even talk to me or Dylan. But she's asking for you"

My heart broke. My poor baby, if she needs me I'll be there, no matter the circumstances

"okay i'll be there soon"

I hung up and grabbed my shit before getting in my car. I would be lying if I said I wasn't worried sick for her. She doesn't do this unless it's something serious, I just hope I can help her

After parking my car and walking around the park for a bit I found a hooded figure sitting on a bench under a tree. As I got closer I started to hear sniffles and cries and by that, I knew exactly who is was

"hey you" I whispered so I wouldn't startle her

She looked up recognising my voice and collapsed into my arms

She then burrows her head into the crook of her neck and began weeping out. I tried my best to comfort her by stroking her hair and giving her a kiss on the top of her head

"what happened" i whispered

"i'm pregnant" she cried

What? I don't know if my heart broke even more or if I choked on my tongue

"shhh it's okay it's okay" i rocked her gently

"no it's not" she cried "he raped me he did he really did and i tried so hard to make myself think he didn't because he said he loved me but he raped me and keeps on doing it he got me pregnant from raping me" she cried again

Fucking Dylan. I am going to kill him.

"shhh calm down calm down for me we will get through this together okay? i am so sorry baby i'm sorry i didn't protect you" i tried my best to hold back my tears and instead held her tighter

"he's gona kill me if i leave him" she wept "or kill the people i love"

"he won't" i promised "he'll be dead before he gets the chance"

"no!" she shouted "trig you cant do that i cant let you do that to yourself"

"i done it with Astrid I can do it with him"

"Trig please i'm begging you" she looked up at me

I grabbed her face and wiped her tears "okay, okay i won't but what happens now?"

"i can't kill it" she placed her head on my chest

"then we won't" i whispered

I'm still gona kill him.