4 Seasons & 1 Moon

Found my Luna

I sit in the passenger seat totally terrified. I don't even know where I'm going. I say my goodbyes to Fern and Jenny. Lola is coming with me. She's been a wolf almost as long as Jenny and Stefan. They might as well have changed together.

"Where are we going?" I ask when We're out of camp. "It's a stable about 700 miles away" he tells me. I nod and stare out the window. I am more scared than I have ever been in my entire life. There are literally no words to describe what I'm feeling.

When we get there I've been told to start straight away. We walk into the stable and I see that there's a huge metal cage. "Will it hold me?" I ask.
"Yes. You're new so you're strength still hasn't set in yet" Lola replies. I nod. I sit myself in the cage and they lock it with a key. "What do I do?" I ask.
"Just... think about something that really frustrates you" Stefan tells me. I sigh and think of the one thing that angers me the most. The fact that my dad and sister were taken away from me. I think about it but nothing happens. I realise I'm shaking. "I can't do it Stefan" I say almost crying.
"It's because you're scared, let the wolf wake up, let the wold be angry, let the wolf take over, Shadow" he tells me. I nod and shut my eyes. I try to wake up the wolf inside me by making it angry but I can't do it. I get frustrated and kick the bars. "I CAN'T FUCKING DO IT!" I scream.
"You're not making yourself angry. Try harder" Stefan responds calmly.
"I CANT DO IT STEFAN! I CANT! ITS TO FUCKING HARD!"
"YOU CAN'T, OR YOU WON'T?" He shouts. I don't have a response because personally it kind of is because I don't want to. I'm too scared. "I don't want to" I spit.
"Well you need to do it" he growls.
"I DON'T NEED TO DO SHIT FOR ANYONE!" I scream at him.
"Why are you shouting?" He asks.
"BECAUSE YOU'RE MAKING ME SO FUCKING MAD!" I scream. I start kicking and hitting the bars and the floor. "Stop it Shadow!" Lola shouts.
"I CANT FUCKING STOP! STOP TELLING ME WHAT TO DO!" I want to keep screaming but my bones start to break and the wolf is waking up. I scream in pain as different bones start to break.

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It's about my 15th time turning, it's day 2 and it's gotten easier. It still hurts but not as much. I still scream but not as loud. This was a lot harder than I thought. I don't even want to be a wolf. I didn't ask for this. All I want is to go home and have my life back. I'm never going to see Caterina or my dad again. I'm thinking that maybe I should've told Caterina that she could come with me. I feel like maybe if I hadn't left this summer, they would still be alive. But mate not. I just feel like this is all my fault. If I didn't run away I would still be normal. I would have to break my bones over and over just so I don't feel pain. And if I I hadn't run away then wolf pups definitely wouldn't be my normal.

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I turn for what is hopefully the last time. But it's different this time. I don't feel any pain. None at all. When I change back to my human form I'm so happy. "Shadow? Are you OK?" Stefan asks.
"I didn't feel anything... it was painless... no pain at all" I say smiling and satisfied.
"Really?" He asks smiling.
"Yes! I felt nothing!" I laugh. He opens the cage and hugs me tightly. I'm so happy. I look into Stefan's eyes and he leans in and kisses me. I kiss him back.

"Umm... guys?" Lola asks. We suddenly pull away. "I'll sit in the car" Lola says smiling. She leaves and it's just me and Stefan. "Umm... we should probably I go" I say and leave quickly. I open the passenger door and quickly get it. Stefan gets in the drivers seat and starts driving as soon as he's got his seatbelt on. "Shadow... can we please talk about this?" Stefan asks me.
"There's nothing to talk about" I mutter. I look back at Lola and see she's asleep.
"Please..." he pleads.
"Just forget about it, OK?" I ask.
"I can't" he whispers. I don't answer. I just look out the window into the trees. I don't even know if it meant anything to him. But it meant everything to me. It just made me fall more in love with him. I don't even know if that's good or bad.

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When we get back to camp I rush back to the cabin and see Fern sitting with Jenny. They look relieved to see me. "How was it?" Fern asks.
"Are you OK?" Jenny asks.
"It went fine. And I'm OK... it's painless now and I can change at my own will instead of a full moon" I tell them.
"That's amazing!" Fern says. I nod. Stefan comes in and pulls me outside and takes me up to the trees. "Please speak to me Shadow" he asks.
"What's there to speak about?" I ask.
"We kissed! You can't tell me it didn't mean anything to you because I know for a fact that it did!" He exlaims.
"Stefan..." I whisper.
"I know it meant something to you"
"Yes it did OK? But I don't want to be with you knowing that you're in love with some other girl!" I yell.
"Shadow..." He mutters.
"No Stefan! Don't you think this is hard for me? I've loved you forever and you don't even feel the same" I say crying.
"Shadow!" He yells.
"No! Stefan just leave me alone!" I yell. I start to walk away but Stefan grabs my hand and kisses me again. I pull away confused. "I love you Shadow... no one else... you!" He tells me.
"You do?" I ask.
"Yeah... I just didn't think you felt the same... I've loved you since I first laid eyes on you" he whispers. I'm lost for words so I kiss him again. He hugs me tightly. "So... what does this mean?" I ask.
"It means I found my Luna" he says.
"Luna?" I ask.
"Yes... a Luna as a wolves soul mate... like you know when you see her... that it's her" he explains. I smile at him. "I'm glad it was me" I tell him.
"Me too..." he whispers and kisses me once more.

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