As Long As Your Happy- louis partridge

letters y/n wrote while he was gone.

Dear louis
The love of my life. Sometimes I want to wake up and realize it was just a dream but instead it's a living nightmare.
Why'd you have to leave so soon, can't we have a little more time?
I want to wake up and realize your mine and I'm yours. I need to shut my mouth. I didn't know how to value life.
Even if I was only your bestfriend.
You love me? You love me and I love you. But i will never understand why you did that to me,why'd you do that for me?
I was the one who didnt understand life's value. And now? Your in a hospital bed unable to hear my thoughts or read them.
It's been a week since, millie and i dance in the rain, crying, laughing, and missing you. Why couldn't you stay a little longer? I need you,your the only one who makes me happy but i couldn't even value that. That's why I'm not setting this letter with the other,I'm setting it beside you. I miss you.
-y/n

Dear louis
It's me again, i hope you can see this,or i hope you can see this later when your with me again,its very hard to concentrate when your not with me. My grades went low ever since you stopped helping me with homework,that made realize how lost and stupid i am without you. My birthday is coming up soon, and i hope you can be there,I'm never giving up on you, millie misses you too. I know this isn't the best time but, mariah is dating someone new not surprised that she left you without a goodbye but at least we can be together forever now. Hopefully. I'm so clingy sometimes but i got attached to you and i hope you can understand that i miss you, and if you were happy with mariah i was too.
- y/l/n

Dear louis,
It's day 9 without you, i still play your playlist on repeat every night, i read to you every morning. Your favorite book.
I got a journal, i write all the reasons why you belong with me and the things we did as kids.
When you were with me, what was your favorite thing we did together? I'll tell you mine, when we danced at night and you'd put your led lights to the color blue because its our favorite color and we'd dance all night until your mom screamed at us for being so loud but we'd laugh it out.
God that makes my heart hurt just thinking about it. My mom missed when you used to come over and bring her favorite cookies, we all miss you.
When mariah brought you down i knew she didn't deserve you, i also knew all along that you were in love with me, but i was too hurt to confess, ever since you ditched me at prom,i thought you'd stopped loving me.
I was wrong,and i was stupid for not confessing before,because now i don't know if you'll make it or not.
- yours

Dear louis
Day 10. Last night when I was reading the book you gave me years ago,i came along a page where people gave eachother nicknames,i remember when we gave eachother nicknames, i was bee because I would get mad when people messed with me and  you were bumble, but when we found out nicknames were for flirting we stopped, we laughed at the thought of it. Bee. And bumble. Bumblebee.
Were made for one another but you never realized how much I loved you. Why'd you date mariah? You didn't like her. Or did you?
She's so, sassy. I love that word. You used to use it on me all the time, and everytime I would get mad, youd say "you are sassy" and tickle me. I refuse to let anyone call me sassy if its not you. My mom used to call me bee and I would get really happy, now i don't let her call me bee unless it's not bumble.
- bee