As Long As Your Happy- louis partridge

Bestfriends with benefits

"Y/n!"mariah exclaimed as she got up off Jonathan's lap,she knew damn well that louis liked her but she couldn't give 2 shits. And jonathan? He was a man whore.
Me and jonathan dated for 2 years until I found out he cheated on me with mariah. I honestly don't know why I'm still her friend, i honestly wasn't mad i have wanted to break up with jonathan for a very long time but never really gathered enough courage to do so. What got me mad is that her excuse was "i didn't know y'all were dating,he said y'all broke up" i knew she was lying i could see it in her face.
"Hi loui how was your day"
"Awful seeing mariah and jonathan together" he whispered, a frown forming onto his face, i dont know what that feeling was but everytime he would talk about mariah i got jelous?
I knew ive like him since 5th grade but I never really got jelous,we were really good friends and i didn't want to ruin it.
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"Hey louisss, can you pass me the homework" mariah came up to louis i looked at louis and he looked right back at me and i shook my head no meaning to not pass her the homework but of course "Yea sure here you go"
Louis said handing her his work sheet,my hands clenched into a fist "Thank you so much loui" she said as she winked at me knowing that i was the only one who called him loui "muah" She loudly said giving louis a peck in the cheek and hopped away
"Louis,really? Your so stupid sometimes" i was truly angry at him but how could I stay mad at him
"I'm sorry y/n, you know I like her and i had too" he said writing down a note with Mariah's name but i couldn't make up what it said "whatchu writing about"
"I think I'm going to confess to mariah"
"When?"
"Fridays party,have you gotten an invitation?"
"No?it seems like everyone else did but me"
I said looking around the classroom
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"I'll call you around 5 y/n you know,to do the homework like we always do"
Louis said waving goodbye at me from his front porch
I drove back home still wondering why I didn't get an invitation but everyone else did "maybe they'll give it tomorrow" i said brushing the thought out my head
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"MOM I'm homeee!" I shouted while closing the door behind me "how was your day darling,how's partridge doing?"
"He's doing fine, school was fine"
I tried to sound amusing but i remembered that louis was going to call me at 5 and it was 4:58
I ran upstairs "LOUIS AND I ARE GOING TO DO HOMEWORK MUM" i shouted and threw my rooms door open and whipped out my phone,laptop and homework.
I dialed louis number a few times but those times that i dialed were all the times I etheir got ignore or call declined. I figured he must've been busy or might have forgot.
"I wish he knew how much I liked him maybe then he'll realize all these letters I've wrote" i have a huge box with letters that I secretly write to louis.
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"You ignored all my calls partridge"
"No no y/n it had a reason" he said with the biggest smile ever.
"And that reason is?"
"Mariah,she asked me out and you know how much I like her so i couldnt say no, i figured you would understand" he said still smiling
"Mhm" i looked down,so all those letters mean nothing. He only sees me as a friend of course,nothing else. How does he not notice i thought I made it obvious when i like someone but I guess not. "Aren't you happy,I'm dating the girl I've always wished to date" he said twirling me around "I'm very happy,for both of you,i just hope she really does make you as happy as you seem. You know how she is louis."
"You never call me by my full first name,is something wrong?"
"Nope I'm better than ever" that's a lie.
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I grabbed a blank sheet of paper and pen
Dear louis partridge,
It hurt me knowing that your dating mariah now. I might have seemed rude but i really do hope she makes you happy, you deserve being with someone who makes you happy. I don't think mariah will do that (but i sure can) when i said I was better than ever today, it was a lie. The truth is that if you ever see these notes just know that I love you, and i won't ever stop. I make things harder sometimes and i try to shut my mouth but the thoughts keep coming in. Sometimes it's better to lie,i don't want to ruin our relationship as bestfriends and if we have to keep being bestfriends we will as long as your happy I'll be too
-y/n (hopefully your future wife)
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I fold the card and carefully put it into an envelope,then i cut some red ribbon and tie a bow around it and set it with the others
"Y/N LOUIS IS HERE" my mom called out from downstairs, i panicked and placed the letter box in my closet. "HE CAN COME UPSTAIRS"
I shouted back and heard footsteps coming up the stairs
"Come in" i said knowing that he would knock any second now "Guess what y/n"
"What"
"I said GUESS what"
"Ughh uh I don't know"
"Mariah and i kissed for the first time,she told-"
And he kept going all night about how beautiful she was
"Louis,if you came here to talk about mariah and mariah only i don't want to hear it,you know how much I hate her"
"Oh uh I'm sorry I really am"
"Mhm"
"I'm sorry I'm going to get going now y/n, I'll see you tomorrow at school" and he stood up from my bed and left.
I heard the front door open and close.
"AHHHH what are you doing to me louis I'm in love with you" i screamed into my pillow without even realizing how much of a bitch i was to him.

AYO THIS IS BAD