Double mind (Yoonmin/Taekook)

33. Silence

I had been just his music, his beat, his perfectly rhymed and spat out lines, I have been dance, the dance my grandma has seen in me, the one she was picturing in her dreams. I was oblivious to anything just Yoongi's rap and my movement, giving it all, improvising to his song, like I had never danced before, stopping with the my name on his lips, a tear leaving my eyes from emotion, but I ignored hoping the judges won't see.

I was frozen in the moment for seconds before getting up and bowing the the jury.

"Thank you Mr. Park," there was something indecipherable in the main judge's eyes so I bowed again walking out like in a trance, seeing Yoongi receiving standing ovations from RM and the jury, from the mad crowd that was cheering 'Encore! Encore!'

"Min!" V and Jungkook reached me, both hugging me tightly what I was thankful for as my legs didn't want to carry me anymore.

"Will he faint?" Asked Jungkook.

"Hopefully not. Min! Min sit down and drink water," V was like a worried mum leading me to a bench holding a water bottle towards me.

I thanked drinking down swiftly, my mind still glued to Yoongi's watching him leaving backstage. The stuff members were congratulating him, a man who introduced himself as RM's manager was offering a private conversation after the competition, but Yoongi was ignoring.

"Hi, do you know where that dance audition is today?" He asked the man instead.

"What!" I yelled it out.

"Min, what happened," V looked at me seriously.

"Um... nothing," I blushed.

V's eyes were investigating my face as if trying to read the truth out of it.

"I can drive you there, we can talk on the way," now it was RM hurrying behind Yoongi.

"Can we have a signature?" The bodyguards are the door pushed some pieces of paper in front of him, so Yoongi signed quickly with a bitter face.

"Let's go home," I got up from the bench.

"Min, don't you want to wait for the results?" Asked V.

"No," I assured running down the corridor between the crowd, I needed to leave before Yoongi will come.

"Min wait!" V was storming behind me closely followed by Jungkook, but I never listened reaching Jungkook's car jumping on the backseat.

"What's gotten into you? Have they told you something bad?" V was looking at me with worry.

"No, just drive me to... the artier."

V and Jungkook exchanged glances.

"Maybe it's better if you stay at ours, you still look pale," muttered Jungkook.

"I'm fine, I just need some time on my own," I assured.

V sighed.

"Drive," he muttered to Jungkook who started the engine, when my heart was beating so loudly.

Now it was me running because of what, Yoongi confessing? We were both cowards when it came to commitment?

"Excuse me I'm looking for Park Jimin, I think he was performing here today," Yoongi's voice made me cover my ears with a pillow.

I was lying on the sleeping bag in the artier finally enjoying my silence after I had insisted on V and Jungkook leaving me alone here, but it was Yoongi's voice in my head breaking my plan again.

"Park Jimin?" The stuff worker looked through a list. "Sorry he has left before the official announcements," said the man.

I sighed getting up stumbling through the artier towards the chest-drawer from the XVIIth century V had received from someone and was keeping some wine in.

I found a bottle inside then filled the crystal glass ignoring Yoongi, trying my best to ignore my own heart telling me off for being an idiot, but I was so done with Yoongi's constant coming and going, with him tearing my heart into pieces to put it back together and destroy again like some game. Maybe Jungkook was right and love wasn't worth such suffering. Maybe it was time to move on from Min Yoongi.mI was sipping the wine walking between Jungkook's shameless acts that stopped bothering me after so much time spent here to find my own unfinished paintings of Yoongi leaned against a wall in the back of the room. He looked so innocent on my sketches, just Yoongi in his oversized pajama, with a tired expression, yet a masterpiece. They way he has shaken Mixtape 1's stage today no one could. Freaking no one, and for a moment I could hear his song, my feet moving by themselves like in a trance.

"Can't hold it in
Anymore
I'm free
Free to the core
Free to ignore
I'm free
I'm free..." I sang while bouncing on my feet.

Yes, I was finally letting go of this first real love in my life. Maybe one day I will find someone who will answer my feelings, I thought looking up at Jungkook's painting, reminiscing his words, and I will be happy like him and V. I will also find my only one one day, but until than I will stay single and concentrate on my dance.

The first week of exams has come and I haven't said a word to Yoongi nor had he said a word to me, both of us ignoring each other like complete strangers who had never been... anything. Strangely the heartbreak allowed me to concentrate on learning as I had to keep my head busy, so I was doing astonishingly well that term, what I couldn't say about V who had failed five exams this week and the painting he has been working on in Mr. Han's class looked like nothing.

It was right after the sixth exam and I was hurrying for lunch, happy the most difficult part of the day is over when I heard Yoongi's rough voice behind me.

"Jimin!"

I ignored quickening my steps.

"Jiminie freaking wait!"

I stopped turning to him, my heart beating crazily.

"What?"

"It's about V," Yoongi's face was pale.

"What happened?" My heartbeat went crazy but Yoongi changed direction sprinting up the corridor towards the always empty library floor then stormed the boy's bathroom. I had difficulties to keep up with his tempo.

There was loud sniffing coming from the bathroom so I fell inside to see my best friend sitting on the floor hugging his knees while spilling huge tears.

"V!" I ran to him crouching down caressing over his face. "V! What happened?"

He just bit his lip, his whole face twisting in pain.

"What happened?" I repeated trying my best to stay calm.

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