maybe a little. // fred weasley x reader

6. Audrey.

T.W.  this chapter is going to start on the part of the story where y/n's eating disorder comes into play. this stems from personal experience and i thought i would add a bit of real life issues into my story. this may be triggering for some people so if that is you. please skip this chapter. lots of love

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you and Fred finally reach the great hall, and you walk threw the large doors where you are immediately greeting by the wondering eyes of all you friends staring you down from afar. " they're never gonna let it go are they" you say looking up at Fred as the two of you walked towards the table. "I doubt it" he states as you reach the table and sit down. Fred next to George, you next to Fred.

"so, where were you two" Katie spits. "studying" you say, you feel your heart start to pick up  pace. " studying ey, Fred didn't have those when we left class" you turn to Fred your face now beet red. " look at you guys matching again" George said letting out a  loud laugh whilst motioning to the matching marks on your necks. this earned him a smack on the back of the head by Fred. "shove off you git" Fred says. " not my fault you've been snogging y/n since the end of first period today." George spits back causing the whole group to start laughing.

you couldn't help but think, maybe you shouldn't have done that with him. why was he suddenly coming onto you like this? just then your thoughts were interrupted by none other than Fred's ex girlfriend. Audrey Rose. she was a beautiful bright Ravenclaw, she had long black hair that fell right at the small of her back.  she had fair skin and bright emerald eyes. she had the perfect body. your mind immediately went to a place it shouldn't. don't eat, you wanna look like her you thought. she made you feel insecure, body image was always something you struggled with. you had in the past struggle with an eating disorder due to your struggles with your body. and knowing she was your competition made you want to cry. why could i not look like her you thought.

"so Fred, this you new girlfriend" she says leaning between the two of you. " i'm not his girlfriend." you let out a small awkward chuckle "why would you think that" you say to her. she motions to your neck then she turns to Fred and runs he long slim fingers with beautifully painted nails down the marks on his neck. " just a guess" she says with a slight smirk. she looked at you then back at Fred, she sent him a wink and walked away blowing a bubble with her gum.

"bloody hell i hate her" Angie says. " i do too such a bitch" Katie interjects. "yeah something like that" you whisper to yourself in a low tone. " what was that y/n, i couldn't hear" Fred says. "nothing Freddie, i'm gonna get going i have some studying to do before next period." you say giving him a small smile. " but you haven't even eaten lunch" he says as you start standing up from the table. " i'm not really hungry, big breakfast " you say quietly as you start to head off.

truth was, you were hungry. you didn't have a big breakfast, just a piece of toast. but you didn't want to eat. well you did but you didn't want it to affect the way you look. you figured if you started skipping a few meals here and there, maybe you would lose a little weight, maybe you would start to look like Audrey. but you knew you couldn't make it obvious that you were doing it. fred and george both knew about your ed, it took you a long time to recover. they helped you immensely when it came to this. they truly were amazing.

you made your way to the library, found a seat in the corner and took out your books and tried to study for your next class. emphasis on the "tried" part. your mind wandered everywhere except where you needed it to. you figured what was the point and closed your book, you picked your head up and looked around the library and your eyes fell on a certain dark-haired girl walking towards you.

" y/n, hey" she said in an overly giddy voice. " hey, Audrey." you replied back in a dull tone as she sat right across from you at the table. "so you and Fred huh" she says propping her head up on her hand. " it's none of your business Audrey. why are you even here, what do you want" you snared back at her. " i'm here because i have a few things to tell you" she replied. " i don't particularly care what you have to tell me, we aren't friends Audrey" you started putting your books back into your bag. " he doesn't like you y/n" your heart sank. " and you would know wouldn't you" you said back trying to keep your emotions from taking over. " why would he like you. You're nothing like me. long dark hair, nice slim waist, pretty face. maybe lose a little chub and he will actually date you instead of just using you" tears start to form in your eyes as you grab your bag and stand up. " your right, i'm nothing like you" you snap back at her "and you wish you were" she could let you have the last word could she. " yeah, because i would want to be a self-centered, conniving bitch." you say sternly and turn to walk away staring down at the floor tears now falling down your cheeks, you look up from the floor to see Fred heading into the library.

"y/n what's wrong" he said looking behind you to see a smirking Audrey sitting down staring at you. " what did she do, come on. talk to me." he tried to calm you down by attempting to grab your arm and pull you in for a hug. but you wouldn't let him "nothing Freddie, I'm fine" you say pulling your arm out of his grasp and speed walk out of the library and to the dorms.

you finally made your way to your dorm where you were greeted by Katie. she was rushing out of the dorm to get to her next class. a class, unfortunately, you two had together. "y/n come on we have to get to class so we are not late" she yelled. you bent down and pretended to tie your shoe so she could not see your horribly tear-stained face. " please let the professor know I won't be in class today. I'm not feeling well and I wanna lay down." you told her. " of course. is that your last class of the day? I can tell your other teachers too if you like." she smiled down at you,"nope, its my last class" you say. " I have to run now. don't wanna be late" she says making her way out of the dorm. "thank you Katie" you say in a voice loud enough so she could hear you. she peeked her head back in the room and gave you a quick thumbs-up before she was gone again.

you take off your shoes and head to your trunk looking for other clothes to wear. you pull out a pair of black leggings and black socks. you walk over to your bed, set your pants down, and see Fred's flannel that you draped on the frame, you realize you've been in your dorm only twice since you've been here because you and Fred slept on the couch your first night here. you grab his shirt and the rest of your outfit and head to the bathroom. you finished changing, and button up the shirt only so far. you left the first three buttons undone so you could pull it to the side exposing your shoulder and a bit of your bralette.

you head out of the bathroom and back to your bed and lay down grabbing your pillow and gripping it tightly. then all the things you were feeling when having that conversation with Audrey came back and hit you. you can't help but let all your tears fall in a light sob. why did it hurt so much? was it the comment about Fred only using you and not truly liking you? or was it the comment about your weight? maybe a bit of both. she knew too when she said it it would hurt you badly because when she was dating Fred, you guys used to be friends and she knew you struggled with your body and your disorder and she just pawned on it to make you feel bad about yourself. and to her advantage, it worked. that's your soft spot. that and Fred.

you kept letting her words replay in your head, over and over again. you were a sobbing mess in your bed. you eventually cried yourself to sleep, hoping when you woke up things would be a little better.