Hours pass, but Sirius doesn't come home. Lily is gone by now and you are sitting in the living room, reading your book. Peter is watching something on TV and James is running in the park. You are deep in your book when Remus sits down next to you and pulls it away.
'Hey!' you cry, but Remus places his finger over his mouth and gestures at Peter. He has fallen asleep with his mouth open. 'What is it?' you ask, on a more serious note.
'Do you know where Sirius is?' You sigh and avert your eyes.
'No, isn't he just in his room?'
'Yes, he is in his room, that is why I am asking you,' Remus snorts.
'Oh, right.'
'It doesn't matter now. Have you spoken to him yet?' Your face speaks for itself. 'That is fine, but you do have to do it soon. I mean in a few days your period will be over, but you will feel just as miserable.'
'Wow, thanks for the stimulant words!' you say and push Remus away with your hand. Remus pushes you back and you fall off the sofa. You grab Remus' arm in the panic and he falls on top of you. You start to laugh and Remus joins you.
Then you hear a shuffle across the room. From the corner of your eye you can see a flash of black hair and two seconds later the door slams shut. 'Found him,' you mutter as you try to get up as quick as possible. You run to the door and taking your coat you yell at Remus that you will get food on your way back.
Outside the wind blows in your face. You have to blink against the cold and you try to find Sirius. But there is no one left in the street. All you can see are the trees and a car every once in a while. You start to walk. You don't know where to, but you just want to be away from your apartment. Away from all the problems. You take deep breath and walk to the park. James must have returned by now, you figure.
The brown leafs crunch under your shoes. There are very few people in the park. You see an old man walking his dog, a woman riding a bike, two adult men in long, black coats and a runner. You sit down on a bench and close your eyes for a second.
'(Y/N)?' You open your eyes and see James standing in front of you. He is panting. 'What are you doing here?'
'Oh, I was running after Sirius but he disappeared and I didn't want to go back home yet,' you say like it is the most normal thing in the world. James sits down next to you. He looks funny with his sweaty head and his hair like he just walked through a storm.
'(Y/N), are you really alright? I mean, for the past days you have been looking sad and you say you are just on your period, but I think you are really sick.' You may smile at James, but your inside is breaking. A tear rolls down your cheek and you shake your head. James pulls you in a hug and gently strokes your back. 'It's fine. Everything will be alright. I am sure Sirius will get over whatever is going on in his head and you will-'
'I'm pregnant.'
James immediately stops talking and freezes. He lets you go and stares at you with disbelieve on his face. He opens his mouth to say something but the words stay in his throat. 'Please, don't tell anyone, alright? I haven't told...' You keep silent. You don't know if you want to tell James it is Sirius' baby. But you don't have to.
'It is Sirius', isn't it?' James guesses and you nod. 'Yeah, I have seen you looking at him. And now the sickness makes a lot more sense.' You giggle sadly. James gets up and offers you his hand. You gladly take it and let you being pulled up from the bench. 'You'll be fine,' he says and puts his arm around you.
The wind has increased and little raindrops are falling down. Leafs are being blown off its twigs and fall on the ground. You and James are the only ones in the park now. It looks dark now it is abandoned and empty.
