Imposterism | KTH

Persona

10

"I didn't know you had a cute side too! You're trending all over social media!" Sulli was grinning ear to ear. We were in the car going back to the hotel.

"I don't wanna know." Her happiness was making me uncomfortable. Even though we had a little blip in security, her enthusiasm was unmatched.

"But they loved you today!" She exclaimed. "They probably forgot about the whole break up by now!"

"Sulli." I gave her a pointed look.

"Right, sorry. But just so you know, chairman sent a message congratulating you."

"The movie is not even released yet." I grumbled. "What's he congratulating me for?

"Well, I didn't tell you because you already had a lot deal with. I received a message from higher ups and there were some doubts if you're gonna survive two scandals back-to-back." She explained. "Last week was so-so, but today, you've done a great job. The fans have drowned out negative comments. Ahh, I'm so relieved."

After I had my last manager fired, not many employees in the company were up for taking the role, simply because they were afraid of meeting the same fate as my previous manager.

In the end, the company assigned the job to an inexperienced employee. Although Sulli has always gone above and beyond to do her job and kept our relationship professional, sometimes she was too naïve to understand how dirty the higher ups play. All they want is money.

"So they predicted I was gonna get sabotaged by media and still let me go on promotions?"

Sulli blinked in surprise. Her happiness faded away as she processed my words. "I- I didn't see it this way. I'm so sorry. I should've told you."

I made a mental note to look for another company. I know I should've left after the whole Sangin fiasco, but they assured me I was the priority and an asset for them. Not anymore, I guess. "It's fine. Forget it."

I leaned back in my seat and closed my eyes to get some rest.

My hotel room was nothing out of ordinary. After living in so many hotels, I found no amusement there. Not like I enjoyed staying at my own home but atleast there I can be sure of every thing being clean.

Blindly trusting the hotel staff, I got under the covers after washing up.

Whom do I approach for finding a new label? The question lingered in my mind. I should've left sooner when I had better contacts. At this moment, I was more of a recluse.

I could ask Park Seojoon. He seemed to have a nice lifestyle and did whatever he wanted, but then again not every company will want a liability. And my acting isn't any different from what hundreds of actresses do. Why would anyone take me? Especially now, when my image is in shambles.

Maybe, I should be more outspoken like today. But that's not going to get me more movies. Once the word spreads that you're difficult to work with, no director will give you a chance. That's just how the industry works. Image was everything, even if it's fake.

My palms started sweating just thinking about the future. I can't quit acting because that's all I've known all my life. Sure, I could survive on the money I have made, but the free time would drive me insane.

I dared to go to twitter and saw myself trending as #GeniusActressYoona. I quickly exited the app and uninstalled it. They're all fooled so easily.

Sooner or later, someone's gonna find out. I should've kept quiet and taken the crap my director was spewing.

A notification popped up on the phone.