Our true feelings {tsukikage}

❣︎Chapter 9❣︎

☝︎︎ that picture right there is the one for chapter 7, it wasnt working at the time so i couldnt put it in that chapter but here so you know.♔

𝓢𝓱𝓸𝔂𝓸

I walked to kageyamas house this morning because I wanted to talk to John and I figured he'd be there, which he was.

I already have a key to their house so I just unlocked the door and walked to the living room which is where he was sitting down
"hey John can I tell you something?" I asked sitting down next to him

"anything" he said. "did you ever hear the stories about tobios dad?" he nodded "well there's a few parts of the story that nobody else knows"

"May I ask what those are?" I thought for a second "I'll tell you my part later but for now I'll tell the the part only tobio Knows"

"not even his mom knows?" I shook my head "and you can't tell her, it has to be between you, me , and tobio" "OK"
"so I'm sure you were told how he abused kageyama, well that's not the whole story. He abused me to sometimes, the only reason I let it happen was for tobio. Sometimes Tom would chain me up in front of them and make me watch him hurt tobio"

I sniffed "I don't even remember any of the pain I was put through because I didn't care, I just didn't want kags to be the only one going through it. Ya know, alone. "

"why didn't you guys tell anyone?" John asked "kageyama begged me not to he said he didn't want to risk anything, so for him I kept quiet" John looked a little confused "ok but when his mom found out, why didn't you tell her?"

I looked away from him "the answer is Simple, really. It doesn't matter all I care for is kageyama, I told him 'in return for what I promised you, can you promise me not to tell your mom I was with You?' "

I sighed and got up to grab some water and then came sat back down "he protested a lot, but he eventually gave in, so that's how no one knows"

John randomly gave me a hug "why..? Are-.."
I didn't know how scared I had been. I didn't know how long I'd been holding all of my tears in. I didn't realize how traumatized I had been from the almost rape incident.

But it all hit when he hugged me, I burst like a damn and I tried to stop my tears but I couldn't
It was a hard time. But I felt the need to stay with tobio, otherwise.......I don't know what might've happened

"you know, that's very brave of you. I don't  think you realize how much you must've helped him. Most of the time when he smiles it's when your around, I know your the one person he's always gonna need the most."
John whispered in my ear

"really?" I asked in sobs "really." John confirmed.
There were footsteps coming towards us
And I heard a voice say "what's going on here? SHOYO WHY ARE YOU CRYING???!" it was kageyama

I sniffed again and got up to hug him, he must've noticed, that I only needed his hug right now because he immediately hugged me back

A͞͞ f͞͞e͞͞w͞͞ m͞͞i͞͞n͞͞u͞͞t͞͞e͞͞s͞͞ l͞͞a͞͞t͞͞e͞͞r͞͞

"why were you crying?" he asked, I looked at him "it's no reason" I said trying to dismiss the topic he probably noticed because he said "ok, but your telling me when your Ready to"

And a few minutes after that we left for school

Ḁͦf̥ͦt̥ͦe̥ͦr̥ͦ t̥ͦh̥ͦe̥ͦ s̥ͦc̥ͦh̥ͦo̥ͦo̥ͦl̥ͦ d̥ͦḁͦy̥ͦ w̥ͦḁͦs̥ͦ o̥ͦv̥ͦe̥ͦr̥ͦ

Today was pretty normal. I took note on the little glances tsukishima and kageyama gave each other . They're really cute honestly. (all 4 of them are walking home) I looked over at tadashi

He had a little bounce in his step, it was adorable. Yes I like yams but it's not like I'm planning in ever telling him, I mean there's no way he would ever like me back.

Y⃟a⃟m⃟a⃟g⃟u⃟c⃟h⃟i⃟

I really like shoyo but I don't think he'd ever feel the same about me
I mean he's so adorable and I love everything about him

K⃟a⃟g⃟e⃟y⃟a⃟m⃟a⃟

I asked hinata what the feeling was on the way to school and he says I love tsukishima, and now that I know that I've been acting strange all day.

I actually have to do a project with him today so I'm going to his house

Once we got there he got some type of cake and we went up to his room. There was only one chair "hey tsukishima do you have another chair I can use?" he shook his head and put his hands on my waist when he sat down and sat me on top of him, facing him

I felt my face get hot and he gave me some of the cake
☟︎ignore the red blanket

We ate there for a little while and when he finished eating I was still on him so I wrapped my arms around his waist, hugging him tightly

Not even a second later he hugged me back
"your very clingy kageyama" he said. I breathed in his cologne "yea not usually though"
He put his hands back on my waist causing me to look up at him "oh? But your clingy to me" I let go of him "yeah I know" he laughed and picked me up taking me to the bed

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
(I'm JP it's nothing like that)

He sat down and sat me on his lap again, this time facing the wall instead of him
And he hugged me from behind

I smiled a bit and closed my eyes getting comfortable and completely forgetting about the project. I leaned into him and sighed in satisfaction that he was hugging me

OK but should we trust John still or not? Is he really just a crazy person? Who knows👀

Lol OK then bye, 1000 words in this one