Right here, Right now

Chapter 26

Since the day of my last scan me and Finn agreed on a name. Megan Mackenzie (or Kenzie, which is what they will call her for short) Harries. I was going to another scan today and Finn was coming with me. I would love to see our little girl every now and then, saying that, I love just thinking about her. 

Finn grabbed my wrist and led me out of our front door. Before the scan we were going to the Harries household to catch up and tell them the news about Kenzie. 

Finn's knock bellowed through the living room and a bright-eyed Emmy came running to the door. She beckoned us into the arm house. Finn grasped my hand and pulled me in. On the couch I could see Jack and Hanni. I ran over to the couch and embraced them both, considering I hadn't seen either of them since the day I found out that we were having a girl. By now everyone was gathered round us giving us a look. I quickly snapped back into reality as Finn broke the silence. "As you all know we are blessed to be having a little girl on the way but recently we decided on a name...". Finn paused so I could finish his sentence "Megan Mackenzie Harries or Kenzie for short". We both smiled and waited for our response. "BABY KENZIE" Emmy squealed as she dived on us, taking us into a hug. Soo that hug turned into a family hug, full of smiles and giggles. Finn looked to the clock and tapped me on the shoulder before kissing me. "Babe, we need to leave for the appointment" he said as he pulled back. He wrapped am arm around my waist and led me out of the door saying our goodbyes as we went. 

It took us ages to get to hospital due to traffic. As we walked in my name was being called so wewere shown straight into the scan room. I did as usual but this scan was alot quiter. The doctor didn't speak at all which worried me a bit. Finn squeezed my hand in reasurrance but this time it didn't work. It failed to make me feel safe and I don't really know why. The doctor brke the silence "I don't really know how to say this..." I knew what was coming next as a tear escaped my eye, Finn was by my side rubbing my hand with his thumb "...what you are experiencing is the start of a miscarrige. We can't save your baby. I'm very sorry" I loudly sobbed into Finn's chest who was now standing up hugging me. I could hear his soft tears too but he made an effort to keep them from me. 

We were led into a room by the doctor to think things through. He left us and we were told to leave when we wanted to. For the 5 minutes we were in there all we did was cry, hug and cry more. There were a couple of words I could think of on how to describe what I felt but they weren't powerfull enough. Someone may as well (I'm trying to spell this out but im not really doing a great job of it, anyway if you know what I mean you have super powers!!!!) have stabbed me in the gut. I felt all I have to live for was to get married to Finn. Finn carried me out of the room and kissed my mascara/ tear- stained face before sitting me in the passenger seat. 

The car ride home was silent and full of snuffles from crying. As you can probably tell we skipped dinner and just went to bed and watched movies. I looked over to the only thing we had bought for Kenzie but it made me cry even more. I basically think I literally cried myself to sleep. Finn hadn't gotten any slep as he was to worried he'd lose me too.

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Heyo, so this was my last proper chapter next is the Epoulige or whatever and then the sequel!!!!!! I'd also like to thank Megan for helping me come up with names and everything. so, yeah. Thanks for reading it means a lot and also it means im not lonely and wasting my time :)

beth:)