Missing Fall-se

0-3

My body moves on its own as my feet went straight to where Namjun was sitting, wearing earphones on both sides and listening to music. I quietly sat beside him, one seat apart, as I got inside the airport.

"Something's bothering you." a statement came from his mouth without looking at me.

I'm not surprised how these seven people already know my action if something happened, things I love and not, or how I'm the type of person who does not speak about her problems and suffer on her own.

He took off the right side of the earphone when he didn't hear me respond, still looking on his front.

"Noona," I looked up to Jeongguk walking towards me, holding two cans of soda.

He gave me one and later gave the other to Namjun, "thank you," I said, and he just responded me a smile before going back to where the others are, not far from our spot.

Jeongguk stopped walking in front of Namjun and turned his head to me. I stared at his innocent eyes when he started his way back and sat beside me.

"Can I talk to you?" I could see the hesitation in his eyes. Jeongguk and I have the same type of personality. He doesn't want his hyungs to see him being weak. Aside from Taehyung, he let out his problems to me.

I nodded as I was ready to listen to whatever he will say. He leaned on the chair as he let out a heavy sigh, facing the front where people are scattered everywhere.

"Did you guys talk already?" I stayed quiet for a few minutes, still staring at him. I guess I was evident for lying this time.

"We did..." I leaned my back on the seat while feeling the air passing by as the time continues to run, "...last month".

He tilted his head on the right side, probably avoiding my gaze as he expected those words from me.

It was already at 4 p.m when I talked to Jeongguk. We stayed silent after but still sitting beside each other. I took the last sip of my soda when I remembered I almost forgot about Namjun.

I glanced at my side and saw Namjun one seat apart from me, looking at his phone. I was about to call him when Hoseok called our names, "Namjun-ah, Soogun-ah, Jeonggukie!"

We stood up together at the same time and went in their direction. I saw Yoongi looking at me when suddenly his words came into my mind.

He went off the van and immediately embraced me in his arms. I wrapped my arms around him and felt him tightened his hold.

"Stay," I couldn't see his face, but his voice broke when he said that. I felt him rested his chin on my shoulder as I continue to caress his back.

We stayed like that for a few minutes before he slowly loosened his embrace, "We should go inside now."

"Oh yeah," we both laughed.

As I was about to lead our way, he again held my wrist. I looked back at him, seeing his eyes full of emotions.

"I'm not going anywhere," I said when he slowly pulled me back to him.

"I shouldn't have let this happen. He made you like this-"

"He did not."

"I gave up for him" He is now looking at the sky. He flashed a smile and a tear escape from his eye.

"Yoongi-ssi"

"I don't care what will happen to me. I just wanted you to be happy with him" I looked up in the sky, and I couldn't help my tears to fall on their own.

When I faced him, he was already on his way to the entrance. I wiped my tears and followed him after.

Jimin went beside me and placed his arms on my shoulder. I raised a brow when I saw his smile getting wide.

"I am taller than you, and it feels amazing. That's all." he laughed after, which made me smile with him. I also heard Hoseok and Jeongguk laughing while the other three did the same reaction as mine.

The day has come. We've been here since 3 p.m, and my heart can't stop beating so fast. I suddenly felt the coldness in me, so I started making heat from my palm by rubbing them together.

I assumed they already know that I had an idea why we are here since they didn't ask me about them not telling me the exact reason and just waited for the moment to come.

I felt Namjun and Jeongguk's presence beside me. Things became worse as I was having mixed emotions and mixed memories.

I suddenly remembered how Namjun helped me with this journey of mine. On the other hand, Jeongguk gave me the realization of how important this friendship is to him.

"No secrets."

I gulped my soda when he mentioned that. It was so hard for me to keep this. I was hesitant if I should ask Namjun for help, and now even Yoongi knew about this.

"You remained silent even when the day Namjun-hyung informed us."

"Noona, why?"

I tried to maintain my gaze in front and didn't say anything. I'm tired of telling lies, but I have to keep this secret of mine. This decision would not only benefit for the happiness of my beloved but also my friends, my only family.

I bit my lip and slightly faced the other side where Namjun was sitting, "It's hard to explain. It's complicated".

"I will let you pass this time, noona. But I hope you would tell us next time, especially Seokjin-hyung" I smiled without looking at him while crossing my arm on my chest.

"He can't wait to see you" I looked at him with my eyes full of questions. He looked back at me with a smile on his face. Words that I've wanted to hear after a month without contact with him.

I clenched my fist, trying to process what he just said. A month without talking with him, a month without hearing his deep voice, a month without seeing his face, there are no days without thinking if he even- "He misses you...so much".

As I was trying to distract myself with other things, my mind started to hum a song.

"I used to hear Taehyung singing that song to you," I stopped when Namjun said that. I didn't notice that I started humming loudly enough for the two of us. I just smiled at him and continued humming the song.

Despite the state of undergoing pain, smile. With the thought that after this journey, this friendship wouldn't last. I will always be thankful.

People are getting crowded as the plane landed, and the passengers started to show up. I couldn't finish the song as I waited for that one person to show up.

Minutes passed, I still can't find him. I sighed and faced the other side seeing people reunited with their loved ones.

Jeongguk bumped my right elbow with his left one, so I looked at him and asked, "What?"

He didn't say anything and pointed something with his mouth. I followed where his mouth is directing to, and by that time, I felt like my whole life came back. I saw you.

Wearing a black coat and a white dress shirt with a tie, and partnered with black pants and his leather loafer shoes.

I didn't think of moving towards him. I can't feel my body and just stared at his presence as he walks in our direction.

"Taehyung-ah," I silently called.

///////