JUNE 1ST 2023!
BOSTON MA!
"GOD SHOULD I BE THIS NERVOUS?"i paced around backstage as
brantley was finishing his last
two songs, and kingston smiled."you're going to be fine."he told me as
i heard footsteps running down the hall."mama!"
i squatted down, opening my
arms for bronwyn to jump into
my arms, which she did.her leg had healed perfectly, and
she was back to running around and
being the same kid she was."mama needs a hug."i sighed as
she squeezed me the hardest she
could, and i smiled."thank you my girl."i put her down,
and i started getting hooked up
with everything."you ready?"jason asked and i shook
my head no, "carter you'll be fine!""i know i'm just nervous."i smiled,
and saw brantley, ben noah and the
rest of his band walking off."you ready?"brantley asked and
i shook my head no, and he chuckled."you'll do great. they absolutely love
you out there."he smiled, and i grinned
knowing he was right."we ready?"i asked my band, and they all
nodded.they went out after we did our usual
preshow ritual, and i was left her by myself
for a few minutes while it went totally dark
before walking out.the crowd was screaming as lila started
the opening cords to girl, and the lights
went bright."man this shits unflattering."
i started, and smiled hearing
the crowds, "all up in my head again.""i don't feel like myself right now,
maybe i should just lay down."i sang,
seeing lila grinning ear to ear."if vanity's my vitamin, i dont
feel the difference. i don't like
myself right now, gotta find
a way out."i went on, "what you
feel is natural.""but i don't wanna feel this anymore."
i looked over to the side stage seeing
miranda standing there, with only her
understanding the meaning behind this
line, "pick yourself up off the kitchen floor,
what you waiting for?""GIRL,"i started the chorus, and a wide
smile came onto my lips, "won't you stop
your crying, i know that you're trying.""everything's gonna be okay, baby girl."i
went on, "don't you hang your head low,
don't you loose your halo, everyone's gonna
be okay baby girl.""draw your comparisons, trying
to find whos lesser than."i started
the second part of the song, "i don't
want to wear your crown, there's enough
to go around."i thought back to the critics comparing
me to all of these other artists, how
they were better than me, how i "wasnt
country" and all the other things they've
said about me, and i didn't want to wear
their crown, their standards. not anymore."what you feel is natural, you don't gotta
put up with this anymore,"lila chimed in
with the background vocals and the grin
wouldnt come off my face, "pick yourself
up off the kitchen floor tell me what you're
waiting for.""GIRL, won't you stop your crying, i
know that you're trying,"i started up
the chorus again, "everything's
gonna be okay baby girl.""don't you hang your head low, don't you
loose your halo,"i continued, "everyone's gonna
be okay, baby girl."we had reached the bridge, and i walked over to lila who was playing the cords of the song.
i hummed the beginning of the bridge, closing my eyes to focus.
"girl don't hang your head low, don't loose your halo, don't loose your halo."i sang, "girl don't hang your head low, don't loose your halo,"
"GIRL!"i came into the third chorus, "i know that you're trying, everything's gonna be okay baby,"
"GIRL, don't you hang your head low, don't you loose your halo,"i went on, grinning, "everyone's gonna be okay, baby girl,"
"won't you stop your crying, i know that you're trying, everything's gonna be okay,"i looked over at the side stage again seeing bronny jamming out, and i smiled, "baby girl, don't you hang your head low, don't you loose your halo, everyone's gonna be okay, baby girl."
"everyone's gonna be, okay baby,"i closed my eyes as we reached the end of the song, listening to lila play the cords, "mm mm mm, mm mm mm."
lila played the final cords, and i gook a deep breath, "hoo hoo hoo, hoo."
i opened my eyes, and saw the fans jumping up and down, screaming and it made me feel alive again.
i looked over at my band, and kingston was grinning ear to ear, before i counted up to 3, "let's go!"
we jumped into the feels, and i had never felt more adrenaline in my life performing.
once we finished the feels, i let out a loud laugh seeing the fans screaming and chanting.
"hey boston."i grinned as the crowd screamed, "i'm carter, and welcome to the 2023 RSVP tour."
the crowd went wild, and the smile wouldnt budge off my lips.
"boston you know how much i love you."i grinned, "you know how much you mean to me."
"i wouldn't have my first stop on this tour anywhere else."i smiled, walking around the stage, "especially after four years, this is the only place i'd want to be."
"so i figured we'd take a time capsule and go back a couple years to a song from my first album."i heard king play the opening to 80s mercedes, and i kicked back off.
i went through three more songs before i kicked off all my favorite people, and got through the first half of the chorus and i looked over at the side of the stage seeing brantley was ready.
"boston please welcome back everyone's favorite outlaw brantley gilbert!"i winked at brantley , and he walked out grinning like a foot, "c'mon bg!"
"not everybody's gonna find clarity in
a back porch sitting kind of therapy with
a little bit of wine, john prine and camel blues."
brantley sang, and i grinned, "oh no.""not everybody leaves well enough alone, stays out of business that ain't their own,"brantley continued before i hopped in with him, "but all my favorite people do!"
"i don't know about them but i know about us, it is what it is and we love who we love, not everybody gets what we're going through but all my favorite people do."i looked over at brantley who was halfway across the stage with a wide smile spread across his face,
"yeah all my favorite people do!"
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