Cries that fall on deaf Ears

01| It starts in my mind

It starts in my mind

Thoughts rushing, chasing each other like the wind.

Scratching and stabbing and slicing my heart.

I see people gazing at me, straight into my eyes.

It seems like they're talking about me, laughing at me, judging me, as my soul dies.

I see people coming towards me, asking me how I am.

I want to say so much, but I stutter and speak so little.

There are so many fears in my head;

I fear I might make a fool out of myself.

The fear of being embarrassed, humiliated and criticized.

The fear of being evil in others life and destroying them.

It devastates me.

I feel like I'm falling, screams erupting, heart racing, gasping for breath.

And I find myself sinking, deep within my soul.

I want to give up.

But maybe, I'm overreacting, lying, seeking attention, and sympathy.

And it all starts in my mind.